`envy mii

2007-07-08T22:09:00.000-07:00

Hello sweethearts (:

Youth Day baybeh. Went out to Jurong Point just now with Ipinku. Sorry khairun for canceling our “date”.

Ipinku,
Kamu sungguh baik sekali. (:

I’m so stressed nowadays due to studies, of course. Not only that, with conflicts and friends giving a cold shoulder, mum putting pressure on me. HOW can I ever survive this year?
I thought, I would leave this school with splendid and wonderful memories. Guess, I’m not.
I missed the bond we had. Please. Because of one person, everyone is affected.

I love my girlfriends (:

Extremely muchh.

Through thick and thin, you’ve been there for me. Despite the fact that I am quite a moody person. (: And sensitive. Nevertheless, each of us has its own faults and I’m not excluded.
The four of you are my pillar of strength. Without you, I have nobody to talk to in class, confide my problems with, share my lame jokes and of course, to tease. (:
I can never forget the moment when you ARE there for me in times of my great depression. You are the light of my darkness tunnel and I hope you shall continue to be that light in my life.
(Oh my! I’ve never said all this before)

Khairunnisa, much love and thank you’s for willing to be my companion to school.
You are one prettyhead and I don’t deny the fact that you are VERY pretty even though how terrible you look when you just woke up from sleep. (: But that doesn’t matter kan. What matters is the inner self. Likewise, beauty is skin-deep.
I know you like someone or at least having an infatuation on someone but you just won’t admit it. Its okay dear. I’ll wait till you confessed, alright BABE? I’m always here for you hunney. Thanks for entertaining my stupid lame jokes all this while. I’m grateful to have met you and be your confidant all this while. I’ve always cherished the time we spent together and treasure this friendship we had.
I’m the CUTEST thing in your life,kan. (:
I love you baby.

Nur Diyanah, lotsa thank you’s and hugs for having to entertain my nonsense and lame jokes in class. You are a great partner. No matter how much I criticized you, teased you, remember this ; ITS PURELY JOKES. Okay kak nahku?
I love you every bit. And I will always sayaang you. (:
Aku ada kerana kau ada kak nahku ;p
I know how much I irritate you in class when you’re trying your best to pay full attention to the lesson. But as you know, I just LOVE to irritates YOU. (yelah! Aku lah yang burok! Kau je yang betol!) hurhur.
Kak nah, I know you are one strong lady. I know you will stand strong no matter how much criticisms you got from anyone. I envy you. (:
I’ll always be there for you like you are always there for me.
iLOVE-you darling.

Herini, I just LOVE you baybeh. Although at times, err, I mean EVERYTIME I tend to disturb you but its all PURELY JOKES ; p I just love to disturb and teased people whom I love and are important in my life. Bear that in mind,okay. (:
My dear, I know how much you are hurt by all this quarrellings. Although I don’t feel the same pain as you are right now, deep down inside I understand how you feel because I’ve been in your position before. It will of course hurst but no matter what, life must go on. Nobody in this world wants a bad ending in a friendship or a relationship. But we don’t have the will to decide our life journey. Everything is decided by HIM.
Whatever it is, I love you girl. And will always be there for you.

To all my sweethearts. I love you. (:
Ipinku, saya sayaang banget sama kamu sih. ;p
You are my knight in shining armour baybeh.

2007-06-25T00:43:00.000-07:00

Hello sweethearts.

(:

Mamaku udah pulang!

Miss HER. (: truckloads.

Holidays gonna end soon. AND that officially means BACK TO SCHOOL. Although at times, i tend to miss school, however there’s always a time when I find that coming back to school was a chore. After a long break…. Now I’m back to square one. Did my physics homework just now and hell it was so difficult. Simply because, I did not spent enough time revising my work. I gotta stop all enjoyment. Seriously.

Went for tuition yesterday at kak nah’s house. Deleted my photos with him at friendster. Sorry Ipin (:
Deleting our photo does not mean anything okay. I just randomly felt like it.

To Ipin ;

Sorry for whatever mistakes I did to you. It wasn’t intentional. Forgive me will you? I know you miss me. Well, honestly, me too (:
Don’t keep anything to yourself. Let me share it with you. (:
Let me be the first one to know anything and the last one to know nothing.
My feelings for you aren’t just illusion but its real.
Thanks for being there even when I don’t need you to be there for me.
Thanks for the shoulder whenever I’m sleepy.
And of course thanks for the priceless sweet-honeyed words.
I got you to blame for the feelings I had for you (;

I can’t promise you not to leave you if that day ever happens.
Because I’m afraid that I will be just making empty promises.
I’ll leave to fate to decide to where it will lead us to.
Please pray hard that it will lead to something good,okay?

I miss you Ipin.
I miss your family too.
*coughs*
(:

However honey, my girlfriends are important too.

I seriously MUST do well for my O’level. I’m beginning to feel the pressure now.
With mama telling me to study 24/7 with no BREAK, and Ying Ling telling me and kak nah that we don’t have much time left for the O’s. Frankly, I’m a last minute person. Everything that I did was all last minute work. EVEN for my N’s. I did my art at the very last minute, I studied my combined humans like 4 hours before the exam, and I practiced my maths for like 12 midnight on the day of the exam.
Luck happens when it comes to N level. But it just won’t happen for O’level.
So I kept telling myself this past few days that no matter what happens, I am so going to study REAL EXTRA hard for my o’s.
Please give me some encouragement and motivation.

(:

I’m getting fatter each day. All thanks to Ipin. He’s the reason why I’m beginning to look like a rice sack.
Thank you sayaang (;
If you’re gonna leave me one day just because i am fatter like-god-knows-how, I’ll smear you till there’s no more life in you.

I gotta do my ART.

(:

It all started at Macdonald, Pioneer Mall. I remembered the first time I saw you was when you walked past my table and I said to myself, “Kaki bebulu sak!” LOL. No joke. Its true.
The next day, I was studying with khairun-ku when you THICK SKINLY ask khairunku’s number from me when she went to the ladies.
I wanted to ignore you but since you ask for HER number, not MY number so I said WAIT, kan?

Short while later, khairun’s back and I told her that you wanted to have her number. She was half-hearted, but I know part of her wanted to give. So I forced her to go out and just give her number to you. I was so confident at that moment that you were my friend’s ex boyfriend. However, you said you were not. So be it.
I was on my way back to Mac d when I saw you and samsir coming towards me. I wanted to ease myself but the ladies toilet were locked. (: But you told me that the toilet for the handicapped was not locked. So I went inside and I remembered asking you and samsir to accompany me, OUTSIDE.
Since you accompanied me outside the toilet, I agreed to accompany you and samsir to 7eleven.
Samsir went back to Macd to get something. And he left you and me. (: You were pestering me for my number, but I dare not give because I am just afraid. Ridiculous kan?
Therefore, I gave khairunku’s number to you.

(:

On 8 June 2007, 0830 hours, you messaged me (:

Since then on..
I started to realize that no matter how hard I try to forget about you due to some circumstances, the more you try to make me fall for you.
Thanks to my girlfriend *coughs*, you have succeeded. (:

I cannot stop missing you and I can’t stop to miss your family either. (;
I’m grateful to GOD for making our paths crossed.
If ever one day, anything bad happens to us, do not let it affect the bond I had with your family.

2007-06-22T06:56:00.000-07:00

Farhanah Jumadi (:

I miss you sweetheartku.

I'll never be able to forget the stupid lame irritating jokes we shared, the secrets we confessed and the argument we had.

i just miss you lovely.

Muacks *

2007-06-18T14:25:00.000-07:00

2007-06-18T14:08:00.001-07:00

Hello sweethearts (:

This past few weeks of holidays has been an enjoyment for me. Not that i couldn't care less all about my studies but..... well, i know i need to buck up now.
Holiday seems so FUN with new cliques. (: Occupied the boredom. In fact, mamaku is still in paris for a holiday.

I miss mama tho`.

So far, life has been enjoyable and of course, i felt so happy. With favourite girlfriends like kak nah and khairun sleeping over, of course i had lotsa fun. However, not to forget we cleaned up the whole house and studied together. (:
and of course my beloved sisterku, fadh.

Thanks my favourite girlfriends for being there for me in times of my need. kudos to you super exotic girlfriends.

Speaking of new cliques. (: (:

I met these wonderful people at PM macdonald while khairun and I were studying.

The friendship does not end there. Almost every day we would meet up.

They are a good friends.
They care to share and they care to hear.

Thanks BABE, IPIN, SAMSIR, GI, & ABG EZAD.

hurhur.

He's nice. And he's good to me.

He never fails to cheer me up. BUT. the feelings i had for him was never certain.
I kept thinking of other people happiness rather than my own. He always told me to be strong. But i can't. He never whines when i need him there for me. He might not be perfect, but in my eyes he is.
I'll leave to FATE to whatever happens between me and him.
Hopefully, its something NICE.
But i know for sure, ONE of us is gonna get hurt and i don't want that to happen.

confession-lovehim

2007-06-18T14:05:00.001-07:00

Photobucket Album

2007-05-24T22:20:00.000-07:00

Mid year truly sucks. ):

Because I failed two subjects and one of it is mathematics. I know I can't go anywhere without my maths.
I got 26 points for my mid year and this truly sucks.

Should have studied harder. But I didn't!
Tsk tsk :(

No holidays for me this coming JUNE. Mama's going to Europe on the 4th. And I'm gonna be alone here. :( Dee, Khairun accompany your lonely friend here please.
=0

Teacher's day coming up soon after national day.Since its our last year we decided to do something for our beloved teachers. awwww~

:)))

(what to do and what to sing?)

And one of the options is this song. :)haha. can't believe I'm doing this for my 4 quarter years in this school.

I just love this song. Nice. Thanks to JOYCE =)

LOVE YA!

2007-05-15T09:03:00.000-07:00

he's my cameraman

my superman

my batman

my perffect man..

hurhur.

2007-05-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

2007-05-02T03:14:00.000-07:00

Best Friend,

If you ever read this post, please tell me you're okay!
Because i missed you damn MUCH!

Seriously.

I am really sorry about that day.

Really sorry.

I miss you, zully.

=(

Its been a month since the cold war between us.
I don't want to prolong this matter anymore.

Whatever it is, I'm sorry.

Forgive me, will you?

with love,
albania

2007-04-17T06:29:00.001-07:00

The previous days of my life.

A profound moment.

During Maths lesson, I was counting the money for the house tee when suddenly, someone, grab a chair and sat beside me and looking at ME!
Its HIM! (:

He said (in malay)
“ Albania, (with the husky voice) I wanna say sorry to you. I know I’ve being such an EGO like what you told me before. I regret and I felt guilty. I hope we can be friends.”
AND I was like SLAP-MY-FACE-PLEASE!
I just smiled.
And he asked me this.
“ Do you accept my apology?”
So I smiled sincerely and nodded my head.

AWWWWWW! It was such a profound moment!

I wished I had a tape recorder to record every word he said!
He’s such a sweet egoist.
I’m glad now that we are no longer in bad terms.
Thanks to Shahzan anyway!
(:

He’s the friend that I missed all this while.
I wanted to punish him by not accepting his apology but come to think of it,
Its no use for me to prolong this matter when actually we could be happily friends by now.

SO I’m glad that finally, we are friends !
(Note the present tense! (: )

2007-04-17T06:28:00.001-07:00

Farhanah called me. I miss you damn hoots!

Seriously my girl, you shouldn’t be bothered with her anymore! NEVER ever! Understand?
She has gone to the extreme whereby forgiveness will never happen if she ever apologize to you.
Her brother doesn’t have the right to reprimand you that way. He thinks highly of himself. So proud to be an ex-convict?! Goodness gracious! Aren’t he ashamed of himself? I wonder what’s the thickness of his skin.
Farhanah, heed my advice. IGNORE ATIKAH! Okay? You should report this to the authority. Her brother has threatened and defamed you. He’s a stupid-self-centered-dork jerk!

To be continued.....

2007-04-17T06:27:00.000-07:00

Updates (:

Hello sweethearts (:

I have not been updating my post for the last 2345 days. I missed it. I am so sorry for not updating my blog for the past 2345 days. I have been so busy lately due to schoolwork, assignments, having remedial, extra-curricular activities, tutoring & et cetera.

On Saturday, 24th March, Nisa and Dee had tuition as per normal at my place. Herini (MM-BAK) came too. ~weee.
We finished at around 7 pm. So while waiting for the time to past, I decided to have a makeover on MM-BAK.
She is superb pretty when she had make-up on. Thanks to the make-up artist over here (EHEM!) She looks just adorable. (: Very the NAA-TUEY!

2007-04-14T07:11:00.000-07:00

i caught a pic with HYRUL. he's truly hot. thanks NISA for taking my pics with them.

CREDITS to U, hah?!

i miss my blog, my internet world.

whatever it is. i'm sorry to my blog readers. truly sorry.

(:

I did badly for the first semester.

FOUR underlined marks. and it includes ENGLISH.
the subject that i am MOST looking forward to all this while.

I did real badly for that!

20 out of 100.

AMAZING right?
truly it is.

i've been having sore throat for the past few days.

and in the next 175361 hours, i'm gonna be the emcee for the speech & prize giving day.

OUCH. * Fortunately, my lines are short.

(;

anyhoots.

Many unexpected incidence(s) has happened in JVS.
and it includes.
LOVE, hurt, anger, FRUSTRATION and betrayal!

Seriously, GUYS like that shouldn't even exist!
why make them exist? when their existence in this world is just to make
other people suffered?!

I just wished that one day HE eventually realised that he's not as good as he think he is!

He's a creature.
With no aim in life.

And eventually, i hate to be in LOVE because of this.

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In my life, GUYS who's willing to accept their spouses imperfections were just FAIRY TALES and could never happen in real life.

Prove me wrong if U don't think SO.

(:

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2007-01-27T23:56:00.002-08:00

*yawns*

half past 1 now.

Still not asleep.

Sickening-eight-legged-freak-creature-look-alike !

Physics : Monday, TEST on sound waves.

Ahhhh !

Stress NOW.

Chemistry : Do TYS. Two chapters.

English : Read & read & read.

Mathematics : Practice plotting graphs and finding gradient. (grrrrr!)

EH.
Study please Albania !

Saw ain on the bus just now.
Pretty sweet now.

But still like a boboy.

Haha.

Miss U lah.

Ceh! ITE already.

(:

Can kerek with secondary school already ah.

Haha.

Speaking of obsessions
HERE.
I’m gonna tell a story.
Whose GF simply LOVE to get JEALOUS over trivial matters like,
BF talks to a so called innocent-harry-potter kind of appearance.
But the difference is, it’s a girl.
BF is sucha SMART-exotic student of a neghbourhood school.
& BF sat just right behind a SLOW-immobile learner. & its easy for her to ask questions when in doubt.
Especially for such a SLOW learner like HER who sometimes don’t catch up very fast.
And teacher’s going at 35 km/h.
And she’d asked him for help.
(don’t ask why of all person, HIM. DUH!)
And GF seems unhappy about it that she persisted on showing tantrums in class.
GF got the BF but, why would she feel so insecure about that.
She was just asking BF questions regarding STUDIES.
Not that she ask BF about what colour is his underwear today. Or
Could she have a date with HIM? (hell, of course NO. )
She’d rather had the friend beside the BF.
(:

Not only that.
BF can’t talk to any girls except for GF.
BF can’t even LOOK at girls.
So, I suggest, BF being transferred out of the school to an ALL boys school.
Where GIRLS are out of sight.
OR.
BF being blind OR mute for life.
(or even a circumcision)
Crude enough.

Honestly, I’ve been in GF’s place before.
And hell. It was stressful.
Negative thoughts all over my mind.
And I know.
It wasn’t love.
It was obsession.
An obsession does not equal to LOVE.
Instead,
Obsession = self-centered relationship.

That’s why my relationship doesn’t last.
All because of these.
Obsessions can never last a r’ship.
In fact, it ruined it.

(:

Therefore,
A lesson to learn.
A trust is a must in a relationship !
(Chey!)
Prove me wrong if its Untrue.

“don’t forget to remember me!”

Please help me understand this Hydrocarbons Family.
Its killing ME !
Seriously.

And physics is SO ultimately HARD.

How can I ever survive now?

*yawns*

Laxatives killing me too.
Why is every thing KILLING me?
BUT I’m still ALIVE!

Please drop dead, *

2007-01-27T23:56:00.001-08:00

I need time for studying now.
I just need the time.
I’ve been sleeping so EARLY during the weekdays.
The reason being, I was TIRED & worn out.
You know school has always been tiring ever since 1948.

I couldn’t manage myself well.
Despite having a personal timetable.

(:

I had PE just now. And we had to run.
But luckily its only one round.

Then we went to play badminton.

Taj’s SO damn aggressive.
Its only a BADMINTON game.
Haha.
I enjoyed it anyway.

But it was pouring after 27 minutes of playing.
So, we went to the hall to continue the game.

But there weren’t enough SHUTTLE cocks.
So I told Mr Tan,
“Mr Tan, No more Cocks left ah (it all flew away)!”

“How come?” He said.

“ How would I know. Everyone took the cocks already.”

“Eh. Can you please be (I forgot the word). Its Shuttle Cock.”

“ Giggle* Alah. I’m used to it lah, cher. It’s a short form right”

“If like that why don’t you call it SHUTTLE? Why must it be Cock?!”

Dee & Herini was laughing already.

So I just walk up the stage and played my game.
Haha.

Mr Tan can be easy-going.
Hurhur.
He’s in good mood today.
Perhaps he woke up from the correct side of the bed.

I continue my game with Shahrin, Suaidah & Khairizal.
It was so hilarious.
(tho’ you might not find it so.)

Suaidah so enthu.
Haha.
She’s willing to hurt herself for the cock, EH. I mean the Shuttle Cocks.

(:

WE had ENGLISH today.
And it was MORE fun today.
Mdm Zainah told us the reason for her being absent for 2 days.

And its quite tragic that many things has happened
To her during this 2 straight days.

(I miss my “boyfriend”)

MATHEMATICS was stressful.
We had to sketch graphs and then plot the graph to get the gradient.
GRADIENT. Was soooooooooo irritating.
I just didn’t know what was going on.
I ask Mr Png other thing, he answered me the other thing.
Like when you ask a person.
“Whats your name?”
And the other person replied.
“Oh. I’m Seventeen this year.”
Yeah. It is LIKE that.

But. Mr Png is cute lah.
Haha.
Nisa just love to make fun of him.
After the MISSING FILES incident.

I am so very sorry if you’re materialistic ..
I might have to leave you, cos you’re not realistic.

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HAHA.

Nisa.
Don’t be SAD girl.
As a matter of fact, there’s always a time when you’ll be facing a failure in life.
What more to be heart-broken. Be happy, okay? Cheer Up ! I know it hurts but this is reality !
Remember, don’t let this affect you. Especially now, you’ve got to study hard.
Wanna go NP right? Haha. (: You still have me ! and the rest too. Love U.
So we must study hard.

(EH. I love my girlfriends Okay.)

Who cares anyway.

Got the yearbook already.

Haha.

Nice.

(:

I don’t need a MAN …

SHAHRIN’s being so irritating nowadays.
Seriously.
Haha. (:

So irritating.
Almost every day we quarreled.
Even over trivial matters.
I AM STUCKED WITH HIM.
For almost.
5 years half.
We were in the same tuition group
Since primary SIX.
And then, we MET again (TERRIFYING) in
Jurongville, in the same level, in THE SAME class & the same CCA !

O.M.G !

& again secondary three.
I was with him again.
In the same school, in the same class and the same ELECTIVES !

I should have been given a MILLION dollars for being a survivor !

AND then, I would not complaint.

But whatever it is.
He’s a wonderful friend.
I kept reminding him NOT to quarrel with me.
Cos I don’t want to marry him.
(neither would he)
I want to marry someone else.
Haha (:
Okay. Enough.

I look UGLY on the yearbook.
But who cares.

(:

I need to get back to studying before I yawn again for the hundredth times.

EH. Wait.

I love Wentworth Miller.
(:

2007-01-27T23:55:00.002-08:00

DEE ::

Study the graph!

::::::: ) y = -10-4x

STRESS lah.

I cannot COPE !

Tell me how~!

Oh yes.

When I was on my way home from the police station 46 hours ago.

I saw a MAN.
Who looks exactly like PAPA.
Really.
I don’t know whether its really papa.
But I’m confident he is.
Not that I wanted to ask him, “Are you Ismail my long lost Fatherl?
What if he says he’s not.
Malu sehh.

But I’m 99.99% its him.
But the other 0.001% , he’s not.
So, I told mama about it.
And she says ITS HIM.

Because .
Firstly, he always took 99.
Secondly, he lives around our area.
And mama, herself, has seen him before.
So. I guess I’m right.

Boo hoo.

(:

2007-01-27T23:55:00.001-08:00

School was JUST so BORING.
Simply because, NOT even a THING went through my head!
I was just thinking about my BOYFRIEND.
God knows how I feel.

I just hope things will go my way
But who am I to make that happen.

I thought there’ll be HADY and TAUFIK today.
But NO.
Only MIRZA HADY.
FUN lah.
Because Hady being lame on stage.
HAHA.

EH. The NYP host was damn gorgeous lah.
She should be a celebrity.

Saw Kak Nina.
I told you, you looked like my teacher, Mdm Suhaily.
Haha.

Anthony cute sia.

Well, GOSSIPS & GOSSIPS is a MUST during the free period.
What do U think will HAPPEN when 5N1 & 5N2 girls meet?
Of course.
GOSSIPS.

Haha.

I enjoyed it anyways.
I know U too (:

EH.
I got the “it ends tonight” song lah.

YIPEE.

Hurhur

(:

when darkness turns to light..
it ends tonight ….

Anyways, dardar.

I don’t have stead okay.
(:

so no worries.

Cos main priorities now
Is O’level!

(:

Lets go to “survivor Singapore”

Weeee ~

2007-01-27T23:53:00.000-08:00

I’m in the last STAGE of having a BRAIN TUMOUR !

YES. Simply because of all the days, TODAY was the MOST unlucky DAY for ME !

Firstly, HE CAME TO SCHOOL!
Secondly, I can’t check my friendster ACC.
Thirdly, I SAW my superficial EX on my way to IMM (it’s a bad OMEN, mind U)
Fourthly, I LOST MY HANDPHONE, once again, LOST MY HANDPHONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How can I ever SURVIVE now?
Surviving is one thing, and the other thing is,
HOW can I be so CARELESS! Unzipping my BAG!
STUPID damn ALBANIA!

I lost MY N70 !
And to whoever who just simply LOVE being a BITCH by stealing it.
HELL is YOUR place in the next LIFE !
YOU’ll be doomed all your entire LIFE, I swear!

I no there’s NO use for me whining, groaning, MOANING or even CRYING now.
What is done is ALREADY done.

My “boyfriend’s” gone NOW.

All the messages I saved are all GONE.
Plus all the NOTES in my handphone which was supposed to be VERY confidential for me are gone NOW.
I just hope THAT stupid BITCH or MORON
Don’t read it or even DARE to enter MY PRIVATE STUFFS.

I know my boyfriend can never be retrieved.

I missed HIM.
I really do.
He’s where I express all my feelings.
My sadness, grief, happiness, prayers to ALLAH & my feelings towards this special SOMEONE.
ALL in there!
And I just don’t get it why must it be gone!

I HATE YOU!

I need comforts. Anyone, with a kind heart, comfort me please.

Nisa, I lost my BOYFRIEND for goodness sake !
Now, I’ve got no mood to watch HADY !

2007-01-23T16:27:00.000-08:00

WHITE precipitate, insoluble in excess.Chemistry practical was STRESSful just now.
But at least better than theory.
OMG. Chem’s mock test was darn difficult!
I couldn’t even give a correct answer to A question.
I’m sure gonna FAIL !

HE just SUCKS.
I hate him. Seriously, I do!
I hate him so much.
Please GOD. Let him be out of my sight FOREVER.

I, HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HIM!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

STRESS sia.

I don’t give a SHIT to his feelings NOW.

Enough said bout HIM.

English was Unboring as usual.

I likee.

AH!

HOMEWORK beginning to increased.
AND I’m still NOT in the least of my mood to study.

I NEED an ALARM-STUDYING HUMAN to wake ME UP from my LALA land.
I need to focus NOW entirely!

YAWNS*

Sleepy sia.

WHERE’S my Mr Perfect?
I missed U.

*teased me*

is it too late to confess a feeling to someone?

An unbearable feeling like, LOVE.

KENTOTS

I missed you !

When are you going to meet me?

(:

Thursday ;
Going NYP with Nisa.

*wooooooots*

Now Girl, you’ve got to decide. He’s given you the space to breathe.
Be decisive. Don’t end up making the wrong choice. You know what’s
Best for you !
BUT still, ONE thing to remind you.
“Love the person who loves U, not the ONE who don’t”
Honestly, I don’t believe in this quote.
Why love a person who loves you, but you don’t love HIM, kan?
You’d rather let HIM feel HAPPY, but you, yourself aren’t.
You ought to make a choice in your life.
Getting hurt and to HURT is all about being in LOVE.
If he really loves you, he will want to see you happy no matter how much hurt he has to ENDURE.
You can lie to him about the feelings now, but you just can’t lie to yourself.

Either.
You sacrifice the person who LOVES you or the person whom you LOVE.

The choice is yours.
No matter what,
You’ve got my back, alright!

(: (: (: (:

I’d rather LOVE the person whom I love.
Because I knew.

He may never know how I felt towards him.

And he’ll never got to know about it!

2007-01-23T16:26:00.003-08:00

“Diam ah KAU!” ; dedicated specially to TEMAH.

I have to study harder year. Its gonna be my last year in Jurongville and plus its my o’level this year. I must make full use of the time I had to STUDY, STUDY & STUDY. I need the points to my own choice of poly. I’ll do my very BEST & ALLAH will handle the rest.
School was hectic. I had ART for the first FOUR periods which is proximately 3 hours.
And I’ve decided on the theme. BUT. I’m still unsure on what medium I wanna use. Either painting or batik. I did batik last year and hell, its totally horrifying. I mean the BATIK I did.
Thanks to my coursework! I managed to score unexpectedly WELL, for me. (:
ENGLISH was FUN. I’m beginning to love ENGLISH ALTHOUGH my English SUCKS.
Its very Unboring with Mdm Zainah around (tho’ I tend to yawns at times). Right Nisa?
(:
:: Dee, when are we going to do the Notice Board?
Today No chemistry practical! *sighs*
BUT. There’ll be TMR! Wohoooo!

House Meeting. And 5N2 is in YELLOW house?
!!!!!! of all the beautiful COLOURS in the world, why must it be YELLOW?
OMG.

Now everything’s started to change, gradually.
First, the colour of the school. Then, the school timing. And now the HOUSE system.
WELL.
What to do, it’s a NEW JURONGVILLE in the NEW 2007 with a NEW PRINCIPAL.

GOD knows how I FEEL.

AND fortunately, its my LAST year.

Shahrin. STOP being irritating CAN? Hurhur. (:

Haryandi was absent AGAIN for week because of his sore eyes.
AND for thank GOD. He’s out of my sight for the time being!
(:

AND I still in no good terms with HER.
HAISh. MISSED her ISOTOPES lah.

ATIKA messaged me when I was asleep just now
YAY!
I missed her lah. I missed FARHANAH too.

=’)

Suaidah was absent! How boring it is. Because as far as I’m concern, she’s the most( MUU-OST ) kecohrable!

I’m suffering from eating disorder now.

Haha.

Well. Who cares.

English Mock Exam was utterly HARD!

I’m sure gonna FAIL.

=(

I MISSED SOMEONE.

(:

4th WEEK of school & I’m beginning to FEEL
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

2007-01-23T16:26:00.001-08:00

HAPPY birthday to SHAHZAN!
seventeen lah!

~weeeee.

& MANY birthday wishes for the other JANUARY babies ;

DD, Haryandi, MamaKU, dar dar, LIA, uncle zizi, zully(upi), Minnie_nini, kak nana.
& those who were born on JANUARY.

I WANT “it ends tonight” SONG!
I want! =’(

Herini can’t send it to me as well as joyce.
Why must it be like this.
=’(
I just really love the song.
It meant so much to me.

Ngee Ann was FUN!
AND tmr,
TP!
Hurhur.
I wanna go TP.

YEAH!

2007-01-23T16:25:00.001-08:00

ART ART ART ART

Totally giving me a hard time thinking about the theme!
Please make me Unwell.

Haish.

I miss Naziihah baby.
Hurhur.
Darling, can walk already.
But she walk very funny lah!

Haa.
Got the pics I took with Eddy, the skeleton.
Thanks shafiq.
Huhur.

ART lesson today.
Decided to work on the theme,
“Flora & Fauna”
BUT
This time.
I’m gonna do a painting.
No more BATIK.
CONCENTRATE NOW BABE!

Nisa & Dee.
HELP me okay?
Stop me from SMSING,
TALKING
GIGGLING
Especially
DAYDREAMING
In class okay?

O’LEVEL.
Less than 9 months!
ITS on October NOW
And I barely had LESS than 9 months to STUDY everything
How “cool” is that!
Hmppph!
I wanna cry.
STRESS.
Arrrgghhhhhhhhhh!
LET me scream all these pains out!

I don’t want to commit myself in a relationship.
Till my O’s are OVER.
Because.
For sure,
If I ever had a boyfriend.
My studies would be neglected.
And I won’t want that to ever happen now.
Who knows,
A mishap would befall upon “us”
Just before or in the midst of me having the O’s.
NOOOOOO!
That’s not going to repeat again.
NEVER.

Hopefully.

But still.
Altho’ NO more relationships for me
FOR now,
Err.
But I still can miss someone right?
No doubt in the fact that
Everyone has its own
Heart-throb.
Same goes to me.
I do have ONE.
BUT
I will never let HIM
Know that.
I missed him.
& the fact that he has just beginning to step into my heart.

I will never tell him my feelings.
NEVER.
Simply because,
I have Pride.
Yes,
I don’t care if people might say that I am selfish or dumb
But my pride comes TOP
ON my list.

I think I’m in CLOUD nine?

Speaking of HIM
Makes me wanna GO
Lala..
Weeeeeeeee`

JUST say U know!

Haha.

This feelings getting control of me.

Haha.
Nisa rebonded HER hair!

Wewiiit.

HAHA.

NISA.
LOVE u too darling!

Haha.
No more JP’s after SCHOOL hah!
Haa.
If not.
Cannot study already.
Remember the goal now is poly.

LETS do it baybeh.
Haha.

2007-01-23T16:24:00.002-08:00

The O’level this year is brought forward to
OCTOBER.
And it will be like,
8 months to come.
And HELL.
I’ve got NO TIME for entertainment anymore!
I need those TIME for STUDY & STUDY.
I really need that.
No more blogging.
No more SMS ing
No more late-nights conversations.

ARRRGHH!

I hate this.
I hate this sufferings.
But I can do NOTHING about it.
All I’ve got to do is.
BUCK UP & STUDY!

I have to.
For the sake of my future.
I will.
=)

Hopefully.

Don’t let it go.

SUFIAN!
Teach me MATHS okay?
I need the HELP!

Huhhh.

2007-01-23T16:24:00.001-08:00

Days ago.
“A” came back to JVS.
WITH ITE uniform.
And when he saw me.
He COMPLETELY pretended that nothing has ever happened between US.
AND when he saw me.
HE just turned away, facing his back to me.
AND I was so not SURPRISED he did that.
Because he knows where the mistakes lies.
If its with me, then I should be the one doing the ‘guilty’ act.
But now. Its HIM.
So, I’ve got no say in this.
Nisa also claimed the same thing.
Yeah sweeety. Its true what U say.
GUYS like this can’t be trusted.
& fortunately.
I don’t have faith in GUYS anymore.
=)
I think SO.

REPUBLIC POLY open house today.
Hurhur.
Honestly. I did enjoy myself today.
It was fun at RP.
Wee.`
Nisa. Yusri. Myself & Zul.
Oh yar.
We bought Zul a Gola bag for his birthday today.
Nisa lah.
She badly wants to buy Zul a present.
Haha.
I thought of buying cake. But then.
I’m still on my mission.
That is to DIET. So, no cakes.
Hurhur.

Nisa. I love U girl.
HAHA.

I tried all sorts of things there.
I tried to make a toothpaste and I don’t know it’ll be that easy.
Taking pictures with Eddy the “skeleton” with lab coats.
Haha.
Super fun lah.

I was very interested in the school of technology ARTS.
Hurhur.

FUN.

Ider, U lied to me.
U told me it wasn’t FUN at all.

HMPH!

AM I in love?
I don’t know.
I’ve tried the best I could to hinder myself from falling in LOVE.
But still it doesn’t work.

We were heading back home.
WHEN suddenly.
From the back view,
I SAW.

A familiar looking guy.
It looks like him from the back.
But he looks quite big with the sweater.
AND then I followed him all the way till the traffic light.
Leaving Nisa. Yus. & Zul behind.

Then I was certain it was HIM.

Because the moment he turned.
It was 1099902% guarantee
ITS HIM.
Haha.
SYARIF.

Hurhur.

HE Looks HOT.
BUT.
I still prefer ALIF.

Hurhur.

Am I missing someone over here?
Or its just a sudden feeling of anxiousness?
He's haunting ME.
& believe it anot.
I still have the desire to imagined HIM.
That’s so CRUDE.
But.
I couldn't help myself.

2007-01-23T16:22:00.000-08:00

He messaged shahzan saying that he just woke up and apologise for not joining us to city hall.
So, I replied using Zan’s HP.
Scolding him for not coming with us.

But I did that for humour purposes,

And

Zan told him that I was the one who replied the previous message.

And HE messaged back again.
(In malay act.)

“Never mind lah. Let her scold me. She hates me what =).”

So Zan told him that it was all a joke.
And HE replied.

“whether it’s a joke or whatever, I still took it seriously! K bye!”

;(

When can I have peace in my life?
I miss the old HIM.
When we used to be friends.
When he don’t like me and I don’t like him.

Why must the feelings came
And gone after HURTING?

I want to close the book chapters in my life in year 2006.
Cos its simply hurting to just recalled back the past.
It is.

If only I could be the time and a human at the same time,
Wouldn’t it be good if I could turn back the time.
To edit the UGLY features and polished the good memories.

But its impossible to do so.
Because I don't have the will and the power to decide on my own fate,
Only Allah has it.
Because he’s the one who
Can predict the future.
I CAN'T.

“Do we have to SPLIT?

2007-01-23T16:21:00.002-08:00

Today's Zul birthday! Yipee!
Seventeen already!
Hurhur.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOUNG MAN!
Weewiit!

LOL.

Going to RP in a few hours time with my dearie, Nisa and her BOYFRIEND, YUSRI.
And plus the birthday boy, oops NO,
The birthday MAN.
Does it sounds right?
Never mind though.

Any hoots.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to LIA & UNCLE ZIZI too.

=0

So many January babies.

AND a happy belated birthday to
MAMA once again.
&
Haryandi!

MAMA’S on the 9th and andy’s on the 8th.

School. School. School.

School’s giving me a headache.
AND also STRESS.
But what can I do?
NOTHING.

Haish.

I just hope to take my O’s quickly and after that I can ease my mind.

Saw A used-to-be-close-friend FROM my school.
Going to his NEW school.
HE saw ME.
BUT when I smiled at him.
HE ignored me blindly!

GOODNESS!
It’s a shock that a person could change drastically overnight!

I know he saw me.
And I saw him.
When I smiled at him,
He looked away.
And I,
Ended up.
SMILING to myself.
Isn’t that stupid?

Well.
I know I shouldn’t make a big fuss over it BUT
Nevertheless, I’m speechless.

Forget about him.

Many things happen in school just now.
I mean. In class.

But
I ought to keep it silence.

If not.
I’ll be obsolete.

I went out with shahzan to city hall today.

Well.
Its fun lah to go out with him without anyone around except the both of us.
He’s indeed a nice chap.
Seriously, he’s sincere.
BUT
Its not to the extent whereby,
I consider him as more than a good friend.

Because.

The feeling’s not there.
Its somewhere else.

Outside esplanade.
We talked.
We talked about his complications in life.

And suddenly.
The past was brought up.
Question that I hope NONE would ask.
Was ask again.

2007-01-23T16:21:00.001-08:00

“To err is human, to forgive, DIVINE”

adapted from Mdm Zainah.

I’m beginning to enjoy my English lessons!
Hurhur.
Never ever occurred to me that I will like ENGLISH one day.
=)

Life in secondary 5 is very different from secondary 4.
Its sucha big gap.
Sighs.
Wonder if I can ever survive.
I hope I will.
I wanna reach for the stars in the starry dark sky.
Haa.
=0

New cliques of friends!
And yar, I had fun!
Hurhur.
But still, how I wished every of my friends and seniors were here too.
:’(

I miss NANA, NINI, ATIKA, FARRIAN & MIRA.

Come back will you?
Haas.
Impossible.

FREE periods during MT.
Wohoo.
Nisa, Dee, Shima, Rau, Bas, Fatimah, Mardiah
Shahzan, Tajuddin, Andy, Shahrin & Myself.
Sat at the bench outside CPA lab.

We GOSSIPS almost about everything,
& apologize to the victims.
Hurhur.

Couldn’t forget Mrs Bala’s story about Gerrard
Who scares the taxi driver away.
And taj’s story about Gerrard
Who loves to march to school & changing CCA’s.

BUT
I pitied him.
I really DO.
Although I enjoy the humourous stunts he did.
But still.
Because of the condition he had.
Make me felt soo pitiful towards him. He has my sympathy.

He disturbed ME.

2007-01-17T02:35:00.000-08:00

" To err is HUMAN, To forgive, DIVINE"

i miss U.

hurhur.

nisa.

ku sayang KAU!

haaha.

i love english lessons!

i love practical during chem's lessons!

i'm loving it!

i LOVE rp.

i had a joyous time there.

but.

FIQ's not there.

so.

U owe me a treat tau!

i must study hard NOW.

yes.

NOW.

2007-01-01T02:08:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

BE BLESSED in the year 2007 :)

Love you sweethearts.

2006-12-28T23:58:00.002-08:00

Mama is the MOST beautiful woman ON earth!

Hurhur =)

Happy New Year in advance my sweethearts J

Y

Say Goodbye to year 2006.
Many things has happened. Especially the unwanted tragedies in my life which UP till now I’ve yet to get over it. However, there are times when people do make mistakes in their life. It’s inevitable. Nobody’s perfect. And that explains the word “sorry” in a dictionary. And “sorry” defines “repentance”.
Beginning of 2006,
I had a smooth-sailing life bcos,
I was with HIM.
And I’m happy.
I found a new confidants in my class. Friends where I can trust to keep my secrets & the one I can turn to whenever I’m in need.
Farhanah & Atika.
Friends that I treasure until now.
I treasure the friendship we had. Tho’ at times, we might argue but still,
It doesn’t change anything between us.
J
You are my perfect JOY. In the moments of laughter you were there, In the moments of sadness & grief ; you were always there right by my side.
I shall miss U sweets. =)
Likewise, you’re IRREPLACEABLE.
Best of luck hunneys ! =’)

When I’ve got the friends I need,
I lost my OWN love.
=’(
And I lost HIM forever.
I mean he’s not DEAD yet.
BUT
HE hates me, and
I, hate HIM for the sake of hating HIM. I never expected that day would come.
10th February 2006.
He left me for good. And the day where I’ve been betrayed by the MANY ONES that I actually trust.
I’ve yet to thank THEM for that.
Not sarcasticly BUT
Sincerely.
Because of them I won’t be living in reality right now.
=)
BUT you people owe me A TREAT for this, OK?
For lying to me plus in cahoots with HIM!
However.
THOSE were the past and like I said,
I’ve yet to get over it.
Enough about HIM.

AND then.
My life began as a normal teenager after that.
I’m happier than I was before.
Well, there’s always a reason behind it.

I had my ART to finish!
Yes. And I wasn’t so into ART like
AWIN, JOYCE, ZAN & DAR DAR.
Seriously my N’level project was like a rubbish-shit-look-alike. Even my own art teacher told me to drop my ART. Haha. The chilli don’t look like chilli but instead a corpse been kept out in the sun and my BATIK waxing was super duper MESSY. It was spilling and playing on the batik itself. Many would agree to what I said here.
AND miraclely,
I’ve got a TWO for my art this year and all the while,
Not only ME, but the rest of my friends thought it will be a U or atleast a 5.
I’ve yet to thank the examiner. Because of this, I managed to go thru secondary 5 to take my o’s. BUTTTTT, I still need to do my art again! NO!

2006-12-28T23:58:00.001-08:00

Why? Why must you start these misery AGAIN for goodness sake?! Haven’t you had enough? Or would U want some more? Life is so unpredictable. One moment U are sad and the other moment u’ll be like the most happiest person on earth. I don’t know what sins I’ve done that this is the retribution I get ! The retribution is U !
How would you feel if someone who has STEPPED into your life, LOVING and cuddling U like noONE else in this world cares, MAKING promises to be with U till the end of time, AND promised that HE will never HURT U even ONE bit,
SUDDENLY scolded U, threatening U to stop teasing the girl that he likes/LOVES or whatever CRAP his feelings is ! I’m not being a heartless-freaky-jealous ex girlfriend
Over here. BUT I DO have a HEART and I do HAVE what U call an invisible thing called “FEELINGS”
If U did this to make MAD or sad, then u’ve succeeded. Don’t blame me for SAYING this here where ANYONE or shall I say EVERYone can read it. I’m not giving U a bad NAME. but like I said, If U don’t give a damn to my own feelings why would I give a shit to yours.
I had enough of YOUR own way or tactics to make me feel HURT.
AND I had enough of TEARS and CRYINGS ON my bedsheets.
I wouldn’t want it anymore.
I don’t care whether U love her or U want her to be YOURS.
I won’t care every bit cos I know I’ve wasted my time thinking of U, crying for U and each time I finished doing that I thought
How stupid can I be ?
I want to vent my anger. And this is how I do it. I don’t want to be someone who LOVES to keep everything by herself and ended up getting hurt.
If I had a choice, I would smear U to death. I want U to feel how its like to be hurt INTERNALLY and EXTERNALLY. Yes. I’m bringing up the past. The past that U think I’ve forgotten it. BUT. I never did ONCE forgotten it.
And I just hoped that ONE day,
IBU and AYAH would read what I’ve said here. I want them to know how FINE and well-respected their son are!
AND now, I’ve hated U. yes, I do. And I hope this feelings that I had towards U could stay as long as I live in this world.

2006-12-28T23:54:00.000-08:00

Waking up from my beauty sleep.
and i remembered that i've got a shooting for the SMRT today.
Like i said.
Tak dapat mediacorp, SMRT pon jadiklahh!
hees.

And I received a message from
Nizam ! saying ;
"Helu everyone.. Nizam nak kawin tau.."
("Helu everyone.. Nizam's getting married.")
*BLANK*
Is he for real?
I just wanna laugh
BUT
My feelings ;
SAD?
For what?
Happy?
SHOULD I?
So,
i decided not to think of it
tho' it has been a disturbance in my mind ALL DAY THRU'
Whatever it is,
I replied ;
"Alhamdullilah :)"
(Praises to Allah)

All the while i was shooting.
i couldn't concentrate.
BUT
come to think of it
why let THESE
affect me !
I've got lots of things to think !
Like my shooting today.

And he messaged me again
saying
"Noi zam nak tanye siket leh?"
("Noi zam want to ask something?")
And i replied ;
"Wat is it?"
Secs after.
he replied
"whats Fiqah like? whats her attitude actually?"

WAHLAU!
CB him!
Of all things he asked me about my kentots.
haha.
never mind.
i just do have those feelings that they might have
a thing going on.
but
i wouldn't dare to comment much !
Cos.
BOTH is
being so secretive.
hmmm.
so, i replied ;
"Oh abt her, if U wanna noe SO MUCH, den ask her to be ur GF. Ok. TATA."
hahaha.
fuhhh.
Seems rude.
but who cares.
But
it does look like a jealousy tone.
but I'm not jealous at all.
YEAH okay.
I'm not that petty.
I'm NOT JEALOUS.
so,
meaning
he's officially EXITING MY LIFE NOW.
BUT.
how can kentots shut me out things like this?
haiyooo.

He said
"thanks. okay. Bye."
Kesian plak.
He messaged me nicely but it seems that
i'm being rude to him
So,
i message him AGAIN.
"If you wanna noe eqa so much,
be her clos friend, know her better. Don't ask around how she's like cos it mite look obvious.
Best way is, be close with her cos overall she's a nice lady. Best of luck :)"
HAHA.
I can't belief it.
For the first time.
I'm so polite and humble to him.
haha.
whatever it is.
BEST OF LUCK
Khairul Nizam.
:)

But
He messaged me again
He said ;
"Noi about fiqa just now i was just joking around. How can I possibly thinking about her when i'm getting married"
Nizam
i just wanted to laugh.
:)))))
Explaining that to me doesn't seem convincing AT ALL.
Moreever,
I don't care.
What I care now
is my future.
To be precise,
I don't care cos
I know,
My future is not you.
So,
why bother?

If you want to get married to any anonymous to me
then go on.
i'll be very happy for U.
If not,
then i won't bother U.

Anyways,
i replied ;
"haha. ok."
And he replied AGAIN.
(Maybe he sensed that i just dowan to entertain his nonsense)
"okay. Don't think anythink yar! ok bye"
HAAHAHAHAHAH.
u make me laugh lah boy.
so,

i replied.
"Don't worry. Even if U and eqa got a thing going on, no wrong in it. NO HARM PON.
Klah. Daada."
:)

With that,
i end off with TEARS in my eyes!
SEE!
i'm just tooo weak.
I don't know where the hell the mistakes lies
that i completely MAKE THESE TEARS falls again.
NIZAM
CAN u just DIE?
DIE ;
so that i can no longer have any heartbreaks
SO that i could stop thinking WHO'S
Ur next GF !
So that i can STOP
wasting my tears on U
Bcos of U
I hate to love again
All thanks to u!
:)

You better answer for my sins
for CURSING u.

Albania,
he's not the only MAN in this world.
I mean
BOY.
.............
So,
"stop being so DUMB
and wasting all ur time, BREATH and of cos
TEARS
ON him."

"I wished that i meet into an accident whereby,
I totally forgot about my past!Can I?"

"I would if i had THE strength!
IF u make me strong mentally then
i shall BANISHED him off my mind and heart. No questions ask !"
I CAN DO IT BAYBEH!

Errrrr.
I have.
I've done it looong time ago.
BUT
why its haunting me now?

Y LOVE

2006-12-28T23:53:00.000-08:00

I'm GETTING pissed off by this comp who just simply can't stop being so irritating!
I can't check my mail, my friendster, and
UPDATE my blog.
Plus the stoopid symantec just can't seem to find its way out of this comp.
I'm getting irritated by all these.
Just My Luck. :)

Any hoots, on Wednesday,
21/12/2006.
I went to JVCB concert at Victoria Concert Hall.
I went with my 'dear' irritating-cunning Kartika Sery.
went off to Bugis first to shop.
hahas.
I bought many-many stuffs.
My $130 gone just like that.
(I've yet to tell mom)
But i'm satisfied with the stuffs i got!
YIPEEE! YYYYYYYY
hurhur.
And EVERY SINGLE THING
i bought that day,
I either wore it or USE it on that particular DAY.
Looks kiasu.
But who cares .
As long as i'm
SATISFIED.
Esqar shopped for her black straight-cut jeans.
And as per normal,
she would always flirt with the sales guy.
regardless of race, language or religion.
she just don't care.
She thought she could tamed those salesguys
so that she could get a discount.
However,
its predictable she just can't.
I bought this nice looking blouse that looks like a dress.
well, I don't know the name for it.
But.
it caught my eye.
AND
ON THE SPOT
i wore it.
hees.
And it happens that we wore the same colour that day.
but,
i look NICER.
=)

the concert was entertaining
ONLY WHEN
it comes to the ALUMNI band.
SORRY
but its the fact lah.
it's understood that the main and the junior band
is still NEW.
however.
I love it MOST
when it comes to alumni band.
U rocks lah people.
espacially.
when they played the piece ;
Beauty and the Beast.
I miss my clarinet though. :(
however,
i just forgot how to play it.
;)

I MISS MY BAND MATES.
I MISS YOU.
I WANNA HUG ALL.
sobs.
Dappy.
upload the pics QUICK !
I wanna keep those pics with them.

ANYHOOTS.
I MISS ALL.

:'))))))))))))

& i went home feeling so
tired.

Met Zul at PM.
Bought MacD. for me and mama.
thanks Zul. :)
He sent me home.
Me, Mama, and him
chatted till late midnights.
Zul ,
I'm happy for you that you've made it !
REALLY.
Remember what mama said ;
No girlfriend-girlfriend
anymore till you've finished the O's.
hurhur =)
and FADH came and join us shortly after.
we practised the scripts for the next day.
I didn't know that my best friend can act.
haha.

hurhur.
I WAS so sleeeepy that i merely forgot that
I was supposed to message Apai.
So.
I just sleep lor.
Cos.
my sleep is the most important thing in my life.

:)

Najeeb.
Noi is sorry.
Its not that I want U to feel that U're the only one taking the initiative
to know me & I don't.
I know
you're giving me space to breathe.
thanks for that :)
appreciate it.
I really need the time to know myself well
before i got to know you, deeper.
knowing you was the nicest thing of all
i'm not exaggerating over here.
; its sincere.
And yar.
you've been too caring
and i'd guessed thats the reason why
you called me and sms me
every now & then
to check on me.
Please don't get mad at me
if i don't reply or answer
ur call
cos
firstly ;
I've other things to do.And i needed the time for that.
secondly ;
I don't understand why U shud get mad when I don't promise U anything.
Like I said ;
I'm not a perfect girl
And i have NOTHING
Sorry if my words here
were hurting but
i gotta say this
honestly
I don't have a split personality.
I am, what I am.
:)
No offence.
Anyhoots,
I'm sorry once again.
Don't rush yourself
to confess those loves to me.
cos
it wasn't meant for me,
whom U just knew like 34 hours.
:)
you don't know the bad side of me
And once u know it,
U just wished that
U don't know it
right from the start.

Get it?

2006-12-28T23:52:00.000-08:00

For some reasons.

I managed to retrieve my entry.

=).

I promise.

2006-12-23T07:01:00.001-08:00

"I would do anything for you.. I love you with all my heart and soul ! "
What craps is that?
Why said all those nasty-lovely-romantical words to a girl
when you noe that one day you will break her heart ?

Since then ;
my trust for guys has dimmed.
And I don't think I would ever belief any word they say.

Anyhoots.
I miss kentots damn much lah.
Met her just now with Apai.
HAHAH
kecot perot aku naik motor dier.

but then.
he's a nice guy tho.
hurhur.

FRIENDS only yar !

hehe.
Yups kentots.
I've made it to sec 5.
thanks for the prayings.
:)
Nizam amacam?
hahaaha.
bleaaahhs.
JEALOUS?
NO !

cumer HAIRAN je ehh.

I miss my blog.

MUACKS

i've got lotttts of grandma's stories to tell
but for now
I'm just tooo tired.
update later .

:)

2006-12-23T07:01:00.000-08:00

I'm damn exhausted now.

and this stoopid comp doesn't seem to be in good mood too.

Now, tell me, how the hell am I supposed to upload my new pics !

ARRRRRGGHHHHH !

2006-12-18T20:17:00.000-08:00

and i'm thankful to GOD that i've made it.

Alhamdullilah. =)

I must buck up

NOW

=')

tears of JOY.

hees.

for the first time,

i think.

i've made mama proud

of her own daughter

;)

2006-12-18T01:49:00.000-08:00

I wake up very early.
I had only a few hours of sleep.
Cos I need to get up early this morning cos
I’ll be accompanying najeeb to his mom’s house at
Pasir ris ; which is like 564 km away.
Hurhur.
Najeeb is kentots cousin.
As well as my cousin. (I insisted)
Harhar.
I had fun going out with him.
Cos he’s just as crazy as I am =)
And fortunately he can tolerate all my nonsense!
I hope I didn’t trouble him at all.
x)
and we met kentots after that.
We went to shop at far east.
I bought my white heeled pumps.
~weeeee.
I felt so tall wearing the shoe.
Harhar.

Najeeb sent me home..
Although i insisted that I went home alone
Which I never ever did that whenever a guy ask me out.
x) but still, he sent me to grandma house.
Awwww.
So sweeet of him =)
He’s my cousin afterall.
HAHA.

NAZIHAH’s bdae!
Weewit.
My baby is 1 year old now.

NAJEEB ;
x)
A great guy deserve a girl
Who’s just as nice as he is.
;)

kentots I miss U sis.
U’re irreplaceable.
I love kentots.
x)

and 24 hours more left

2006-12-14T17:35:00.000-08:00

boohoo.

tsktsk.

i cried. I've been up eversince 24 hours ago.

Actually ,

i wanted to sleep

but ;

thinking of mama's going off this morning at 5 am.

den i shall not sleep.

cos if i ever sleep.

god knows what time i might wake up again.

sad lah.

i'm gonna miss my mama so much.

really.

cos after she left just now.

i dashed off to the bathroom

and cried.

sad lah.

can't bear to cry in-front of her.

i'm just missing her rite now.

tsktsk

AND

this stoopid symantec is getting on my nerves.

sending stoopid-freaky DIRTY messages hell noes whatever shits it is.

going out later with BAS, FADH and maybe I-qal.

meet my JON JON and errr. HADY.

hurhur.

i just LOVE to be a traitor.

BAD sia. hurhur =)

3 days left ;

and after that.

my life's OVER.

so before anything,

i'm heree

to apologise if anything i did

somehow

makes U ppl mad.

cos thats the way I am.

sorry ppl.

forgive and forget OK?

LAST BUT NOT LEAST ,

for the last time,

i LOVE U .

death angel on its way.

2006-12-13T03:47:00.000-08:00

I'm missing every of my seniors.

I'm missing my FRIENDS.

I'm missing my classmates.

& i absolutely missing my desk!

=')

My band seniors.

the tears we cried ; the hysterical-god-knows-how laughter we make ; the incorrigible-molestings we had ; and the GOSSIPS we shared .
its irreplaceable .

i'll be waiting for 20th December!

hurhur.

Kartika jus seem couldn't accept the fact that i'm way more cuter than her plus my cute lil' flawless jendol seems to captivate many. that makes her mad, rite? hurhur. thats the reason why she's always been picking on me.but still i love her as much. =) not so much tho' . part of it is for adha. haha. ;0 Fira ; the hot sweetie, doesn't seem to forget me. hehe. been missing U babe. ever wondered why Ur eyelashes dropped suddenly & suddenly U sneezed? cos i MISSED U babe. if U say i'm cute than U are just too sweet lady. (just couldn't say it on kartika) Surya ; how i miss Ur *****. haha. U-know-what. like always, u've been molesting me up and down whenever u meet me. haha. same goes to kak alia, who doesn't seem to care whether i'm a girl or guy. soory ah. NO GIRLS allowed. haha. (NO!)
kak alia and yaya's madness jus couldn't stop. what more the hot momma, SHIMA. she makes me go MAD , she's the reason why i am now. SUPER insanity plus BATTY.
hurhur. And Mr Haiqel , i miss u loads. mama's been asking how U doing. when we went IMM. i told her U were there. but u didn't come and meet ME. how sad. And Mok! stop bickering with ME! like ppl said, HATE means LOVE. so, i dowan to end up loving U cos I will NEVER. haha. mama also said that if we always bicker with each other who noes u mite be my groom (it'l never happen, i PROMISE) so i aswered back, "U want him to be ur son-in-law?" haha. and mama jus kept quiet.
To conclude. i jus miss everyone of U. how i wished we could jus remained as it is last time. but that's not gonna happen.

I love U ppl. U make a difference in my life (such as, MAKING me MAD + insane)

MISS u LOADS and LORRIES.

2006-12-12T14:41:00.000-08:00

I've been doing this for 798861786756 times. and still it doesn't look like i was in a magazine!

wooosh.

Listening to sleeq's song over and over again.

and i'm touched .

Due to some circumstances,

i have to admit syariff is hot.

Hot than i can ever imagine.

hurhur =)

I don't remember myself being able to fall in love in just a glance.

awww.

he's melting me.

but too bad tho'.

he's officially taken.

by an anonymous.

Question mark.

FIVE more days.

to my big BIG big disaster!

its my RESULTS day.

Oh no!

pray for me!

pray that i could make it!

nuff said.

now i'm experiencing Deja Vu

like i've experienced this current situation before.

I still got some work to do.

Now its nearly 7 am.

and i'm still awake with FADH.

we decided not to sleep since we'l be collecting the tics

LATER.

and if BY CHANCE,

we slept ;

unknowingly ,

there goes OUR tics!

this sunday,

will be

Baby Nazihah's bdae!

Yippee!

Dah besar dier!

Nazihah will be one year old now.

Thanks for the invitation btw.

Once again,

yesterday night.

bacensz face.

is on TV.

hurhur

JAKUN nye BDK!

weeee~

hey, its not that ugly okay!

its just that i look

sooooooooooooo

Unreadily.

I miss my JON JON agaiin.

LIVE IS MEANT TO LIVE AND LET LIVE!

(where do i get such quotes from?)

~i wanna SLEEP!

SICKENING TOAD!

hurhur.

haissh.

2006-12-10T04:56:00.000-08:00

BLUR lah *

pinkie-fadh & bacensz waiting for mr. TAUFIK!
awwww. lurve U.

IMM today.

went with fadh and mama..

woahs.

lotsa ppl.

Lia and her sis was there.

haha.

best lor.

then, met yuyun plus kak Nora.

and wanni too.

byk kerabat aku pat situ.

denn.

hahaha.

jeng jeng jeng.

met BASIRAH and her fren.

hurhur.

summore that fren of hers is the girl i met

at speakeasy.

hurhur

wat a small world.

we shouted like mad crazy girls.

haha

super fun lah.

then .

we ate at Long John Silver.

mama treat all of us.

haha.

at first.

Bas malu2 lah.

haha.

tapi inside MAHU kan?

LOLS

remember hah.

15th SHOPPING!

haha.

chatted with her.

gossips with her.

haha.

crazy chic.

LOL

i wanna mit JON JON.

i miss him.

haha.

i wanna go the countdown at vivo.

mama, let me go ok?

love U.

haha.

2006-12-06T05:29:00.000-08:00

Mama's going to bangkok on the 15th
And me.
Left heree alone.
tsktsk

never mind.
i'll be happy here.
but i'l miss mama.

haha.
saw myself on tv.
pathetic ME.
waving that 'hady hearts'
LOLS
fadh was beside me.

hurhur =)

considering that mama's in good mood ytd.
wow.
haha.
laugh happily with her and fadh.
now i LOVE her.
its not that i don't love her ;
hurhur +0

Life is a cycle ;
What goes around comes around.
whatever shall happen to me.
might happen to U.
Love might complete the other half of my life.
but still ;
now's not the time yet
to provoke myself into a thing called
"Love"
a young girl like me
might not noee
the real meaning of love
Just Yet.
cos if i noe
i might be in
a long lasting love.
but not all relationships
ended up as a betrothal.

the time will come when
i am suree
that's love.
and
it'l be the time
when i'm sure
he's the one for me.

my dreams are big
very big.
i dare to dream
cos i want it to come true
dreams
motivates me to strive harder in my life.
my purpose in life is
to be successful one day
and a useful person in the society

he's my bestFriend
and iLovehim
but ;
this feelings will only stick as
it is now.
not gonna be more.
=)

i'm grateful to have many beautiful ppl
in my life.
it gives me strength
to move on.
there's a time when
i wanted to end this life.
cos
i was so tired of living
tired of being hurrt
& tired of being who i don't want to be.

now.
i'd guessed
experience makes me wiser.
wiser in be decisive
i should be that long time ago.
but
i let myself to be
hurt.
so ;
it wasnt
Ur fault.

live life to the fullest ppl.

Cheers!

2006-12-04T01:15:00.000-08:00

2006-12-04T01:08:00.000-08:00

MORNING SUNSHINE!

i woke up very early.

8 am.

MIRACLES

FRESH now.

took piics.

hehecs.

when i haven bathe yet.

2006-12-02T07:58:00.000-08:00

he called me ;

surprised + happy

cant say much cos

its too earlyy

zul is in dillema

kentots is MOVING ON

memang patot pon.

how i'd wished i could

screw hiis head

and yelled loudly

"stop being so EGO"

i'm much moree

livelier now.

donNoe why.

but i'm

all SMILES
but part of me

still worried fer

my results

i hope sooo much to be

able to score

or enter sec 5.

puh-lease.

haissh.

i hope fr the best!

now back to my novel. :)

2006-12-01T10:20:00.000-08:00

how do you define ; LOVE?

"Apa Artinya Cinta?"

hmms.

k e n t o t is in DESPAIR

haissh.

BOYS.

why do you always let your

EGO control yourself?

why must U

be somebody that U don't EVEN

NOE!

*sighs*

nuff said ;

& now.

i've been addicted to NOVELS.

well.

it taught me aLOOOT of THINGS.

sumtimes i feel that i was the one going thru it.

i've learnt a lot.

MOS ;

tmr.

HADY's showcase.

kentot + bacensz

today slept at nyai's house.

chatted with her.

till late nite.

it seems hard for her to get HIM

off her mind.

i can understand it.

;

if i were HER

i would be feeling the same way too.

and

zul is also in the same boat as her.

HAISH.

i've learnt a lesson heree.

"don't make empty promises when you noe

ONE day U can't fulfill it!"

MOVED ON.

cos there's no use moaning.

things will never be the same again

if U were thinking of that person U

love now.

would that person be thinking of U?

a one-sided LOVE

is never a

HAPPY-ending

unless

its god-wills.

*********

2006-11-28T06:20:00.000-08:00

this is what we do when we are having MAJOR exams like, N-LEVEL?

i miss and love my class. 4N2'06

i miss my friends. sobs sobs. my schooling days.

2006-11-28T06:09:00.000-08:00

tiredness.
sickening-toad!
MAN.MIN
they are sooo irritating. hurhur =)

i was soo tired sehhs.

huh. wake up very late deh!

haha.

and i still haven get the tics.

its today for goodness sake.

haiyooo.

hmph!!

wahlau.

nvm.

man.min.mun

ask me out.

hurhur +)

so, again we went out but to jp only.

cos im so famished.

then waited for NIN to come.

haha.

so, FADH.

MOVIE marathon tonite?

hurhur

watched apa ertinya cinta.

damn sweet .

soooooo swiiiit.

LOLS

all i wanted to say is

i'm soooo tired now.

2006-11-27T06:05:00.000-08:00

all day i've been waiting for freaky z to call me.

i want the tics!

wher are you?

LOLS

2006-11-27T05:55:00.000-08:00

he's sicko-retarded . he's my FRIEND.
i'm left with boredom.

the un-cutes
"you can't have fringe like me, mok!"

2006-11-25T13:29:00.000-08:00

heyys

woaahs.

just now went to SPEAKEASY.
funFun.
so there was rauzan and his buddy whom is still unknown to me.
they are the emcees.
funny ler.
i was looking high and low for freakyZ
because a week before
he told me to come to this SPEAKEASY thingy
and get tickets for the hiphop slam.
so, i searched for him.
but he's not there.
i only saw sleeq plus rau plus roze and the rest of the beats society.
but freakyZ was not in sight.

then.
the three-stooges.
man.min.mun
LOLS
plus me.
went outside.
to take fresh air.
helmi wanted to take a leave cos he was utterly bored
so i asked one of the beats member
she said that freakyZ will be there shortly
so not wantin to wait.
i went off with helmi.black and mok.
woahhs.
going out with them was fun.
it did matter to me at first bcos
i was the only flower amg the thorns
but they treated me well.
CREDITS to u lahh. =)
hahas.
oh ya. i saw syira.
haha.
pretty2 babe now.
weeewiiiit!

then.
i meet kentot at city hall.
and again.
CARAMEL FRAPP plus chocs DRIZZLE.

and i've been cursing everybody all along the way
bcos i didn't get the ticks.
hurhur =)
bad huh?
kesian kentot.
kene jotos ngan aku nie.
haha.
and every innocent one passed by us.
i would cursed them or say un-nice things.
how bad is tat?

haiiish.

but then ;

i managed to get the ticks also.

can't wait to go.

weeeeeeeeeee~

2006-11-24T22:44:00.000-08:00

yAy...!

going to speakeasy.

thanks HELL-boy and mr. BLACK.

haha.

*SMILES*

"to the left... to the left..."

"you must not know 'bout me".......

lallaallaallaa..

2006-11-24T21:19:00.000-08:00

2006-11-24T21:00:00.000-08:00

friday evening went to meet mama at raffles before going to KENTOT house.

MAMA had dinner tonite. and will be back VERY late.

i wanted to buy pants for tmr if only i going the SPEAKEASY thingy.

so went to this GIORDANO outlet
and i heard a FAMILIAR voiice.

"WELCOME TO .... giordano!"

ahacs.

and i shouted
"ZUBIIIRRR!!!"

zubir was the cheerleader aka captain
for Hady's Fans
so.
there he was
working.
was surprised to meet him tho'.

more surprising.
he wasn't in a good terms with
DINA, zura plus plus
and summore
he oso broke up with his gf.
haishh.
nvm lah zubir.
just stay HAPPY okays?

so went to YISHUN
with zubir after mama left for her dinner
and today,
mama went to indonesia
with her FRIENDS.
HAISSSSH.
certainly boredd
i have nothing to do.
and i don't understand why she can't tag me along?
she has always been tagging me along wherever she go.
why not now?
and yesterday.
i asked her.
why she is she going there
and she just replied.
"you don't need to know my dear."
=(
why can't i not know?

2006-11-24T20:38:00.000-08:00

BATTY + insaniity =TROUBLES

2006-11-24T20:22:00.000-08:00

2006-11-22T05:13:00.000-08:00

why can't i upLOAD my piics? stoopiid blog.
grrrrrrrrrr.

2006-11-22T02:30:00.000-08:00

went mediacorp with FADH. for the "wish upon a star" rec show.
bump with minnieNini and her friends.

wah. kecoh betol mulot aku smlm.
ahacs.

LOLS

i had lotsa fun yesterday.
HELL LOTSA FUN.
plus my BIG-unstoppable-CHATTERING mouth

wah LAU
fun siaa

gurmit has became a BALDMAN
but he looks gorgeously-young huh
and their perfomance were very the FUN

=0

so.
when it was breaktime.
gurmit make this joke on my JON JON

because this make-up artist
did some touch up on JON JON
so she ponders on his nose.

GURMIT and HADY make this stupid joke lah
GURMIT says:
"do you know what does it means when a MAN has a big nose like you?"

and JON JON was asking back
"what?"

and gurmit says:
" it means when a MAN has BIG nose. THE OTHER THING is SMALL"

LOLS
we the audience were laughing.

ahacs.

cute siiaa JON JON

and JON JON answered back.

"so, do you know what it means when a MAN is bald?"

he continues....
MEANS..
"he HAS NO HAIR"

LOLS

JON JON i didn't know u soo cute mannn.
i luuuurrrrp you lahh.

haha..

get wad the jokes mean?

LOLS

GUYS YOU SHOULD KNOW BETTER

then there was this part when HADY and JON JON
was standing near us.

SUDDENLY
hady turned and faced me
he said "hi!" plus his smile
i wanted to JELING
ahacs.
but.
kesian kan.
lols
but still i can NEVER forget that incident
at INDOOR STADIUM, MR HADY.

*wiiinks*

then JON JON turned and say
"hi!" plus his kisseable-lips
awwwww.
melt sia noii.
ahacs
and he wink.
nvm
let me be prasan a while
cos i'm so in LURVE with JON JON.

JONATHAN LEONG
.
.
.
.
.

my IDOL. LOLS

after the show.
we waited at the reception.
JOAKIM came out.
NURUL.
RAHIMAH.
PAUL.
EMILEE.
AARON.
plus SHAH ISKANDAR.
and my belurved HUSIN SYAABAN

LOLS

i had funn
and we went back home.
but i was feeling damn hungry
can u imagined our stomach
not being filled since morning
and at the studio we were like shouting
like MAD-hooligans
goshh
so we dropped by at JURONG east

at 7-eleven
there's group of matreps
we wanted to walk past but
the look of them makes me scared sehh
ahahs
so i told FADH (she was SCARED alr)
we walk the other way
then one of the mat was STUPIDLY-SHOUTING at us
"oi mina jalan lah sini!!!"
again
"OI!"
again
"mataer sendiri pon tak kenal perr???!"
i turned to look
and one of them were staring at us
CB. F*** lah.
saper sak mataer dier.
CB CB CB CB
geraaaaaaaaaaaaaaam tau!
huhhhhh.

da la kebulorrr
apelah naseb jumpe mamat tak sedar diri tuhh

my stomach is hungry and i'm tired.
and now.
with this stupid BOYS

den wen i want to buy something
there's TWO stupid bangla's
were grinning at us
stupid lah
look at us atas bawah
da lah pakai kain
aku tarek bia sumer tgk betape KECIKNYE ANU KAU
CB CB CB
thinking of what happened
i so angry tau
den nak alek
i shouted like MAD-woman
"POLICE where??!! POLICE! POLICE"
FADH was like laughing
dek tu lagi satu
jantan2 keparat tu da tgk2 gitu
lagi leh biakan

and we took cab go home.
reached home at midnight.

2006-11-18T00:41:00.000-08:00

weeewiiit~

LOLS

presenting the PRASAN-sexy-babes

LOLS

its almost midnight.
kak sylah. ME. shiqin.

were camera-w-honing
haha.

we were dressed so sexily.
and give some sexy shots.
imagining ourself to be at the studio.

HAHA.

kentot was supposed to join us.
BUT.
she was ON-THE-PHONE with herr mr.PERFECT

so end up three of us.

but.
shiqin was dressed in her BARNEY-fully-clothed.

well i enjoyed the pics.

there's many more pics.
BUT.
its strictly for children aged 18 & above.

LOLS

dadaa.

2006-11-18T00:27:00.000-08:00

1625 now.

i jus woke up from my beauty sleep.

and i had the strangiest dreams of all.

*grrrrrrr*

i can only say.
i dreamt of SOMEONE.
but he's an unknown identity to me.

i've yet to know him.

?????

i'm feeling so sleeepppy plus tired.

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

yesterday.i mean jus now morning.
lukman messaged me.
wow.
after a veryyyyyy long time.
he messaged me.
asking whether i still remember him.
he messaged me thrice.
and still.
i did not reply.
cos.
i'm sooo not-interested.

sorry yarh!

anyways.
he's the guy who asked for my number
when i went out with my kentots to bugis.

but.
unfortunately.
things doesnt work out between me and him.
due to some reasons that i can't state.
x)

apologised to that.

well.
then now.
i'm tired to haf anyone in my mind now.
weeeeeeee.

i belief that.
"LOVE will surely come to ME one day without me realising its presence"

expected the unexpected.

soooo.
LIVE my life to the fullest.
no matter what happens.
i still haf my loved ones.

*winks*

2006-11-17T12:01:00.000-08:00

i'm sick and tired.

to entertain those ppl.

or shall i say 'LADS'

hmms.

sicko-phsyco-belo
LADS.

nice werd i've learnt after 16 years of living.
LADS.

LOLS.

bad siia.

now.
i'm home sweet home.

best of all.
i miss my MAMA.

LOLS

i'm still not sleeping now.

i'm so dreadfully worn out.

went hari raya outing to my tok wan's house.

with my MAMA.aunt.along.shiqin plus the loviing couple,
aunt ZED and uncle ZIZI.
so sad.
my babygerl not there.
i certainly miss aa-ee-hah.
(naziihah)

i really like this irreplaceable song.
so unique yet captivates my heart.

but i still don't get the "to the left.. to the left"
like you are marching.
LOLS

*yawns*

so sliipyy larrh

but can't sleep.

anyone?
put me to sleep.

LOLS

dadaa.

2006-11-16T07:20:00.000-08:00

i'm soooooo DOWN

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aiyoo.

yesterday was okay.

donnoe why today was so mad

jus now after sending shiqin to her mummy at YCK

i went straight to causeway point alone

at that moment
i felt so intensed.
plus sad . plus MAD.
mixed FEELINGS.

i don know how to vent my angerism(huh)
so.
from causeway.
i walked to vista point and go back to causeway again.

i don't know for what purpose i go there?
i don't know why i was very MAD
i'm soo puzzled

i hate-those-LADS

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2006-11-16T06:13:00.000-08:00

stop beiing a B**** lah.

don't be a coward not to say your name and use other ppl name.

you are being such a pest to yourself.

F*** %&^$*&^(*&)*_)(*^%^%

hypocrites.
fucking irritating sehh.

2006-11-16T00:14:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder.

why people often feel that they are so perfect?

when the truth is,

nobody IS perfect.

people make mistakes.

so do I.

i make mistakes in my life too.

i couldn't escape from that.

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i don't bear any grudges to anyone.

cos.
now i realised the importance of being a HUMAN BEING.

i admiit.
often i felt so angry and wanted to avenge for the hurt and grief i had.
but.
it doesn't make me feel better.
but.
instead.
it turns out that my life is even MORE miserable than before.

in other werds.
"forgive and forget"

i'm beginning to accept all the UNWANTED-tragedies in my life as a sign for me
to be truthful to myself.
to be more ALERT in the outside world.

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as much as i wanted to be happy.
i'm beginning to feel it now.
'cos each day i wake up with a hope.
" a hope to forgive and forget that hurts me. And live each day to the fullest. "

2006-11-15T12:19:00.000-08:00

its 4.25 am

i came across thiss websiite abt love quotes and such.

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Love is so very special
Yet can make you feel so lost
It can arrive just like the springtime
And melt away like morning frost
You must find ways to nurture
Always grow your love with care
Never ever take for granted
The love that you both share
Mistakes are bound to happen
You may hurt each other's heart
Yet don't give up to easily
It will tear your love apart
Love resembles a bright flame
That lights a dark starry night
Never ever let this flame burn down
Rekindle with all your might
Take a moment every day
Look deep into each other's eyes
Never hesitate to show affection
Small gestures will keep a love alive
Talk openly about your feelings
Take time to show that you care
Treasure each and every moment
Because to find true love is rare
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yesh.
true love is indeed hard to fiind.

it is indeed hard if you ever be stuck in a situation
whereby.
the person you love, doesn't love you.
although.
your love is unanswered.
still.
there's always someone out there.
who is meant for you.
someone who'll be there even if
you DON'T need them to be there.
someone who will share your tears and laughter.
someone who understands you.
someone who doesn't underestimate your capability.
someone who respect and trust you.
someone who accept all your imperfections.
and someone
who will never make you cry for no good reasons.

L-O-V-E

its an inevitable feelings.

yarr.

i tried by all means to avoid myself from falling in love.
but.
the more i tried.
the more it eludes me.
and i'm not EVEN
prepared to face all the consequences

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breaking free from my PRISON-hell-love-likes-feelings.

i have to be ignorant towards LOVE*

2006-11-15T06:57:00.000-08:00

"you must not know 'bout me"

these words kept popping on my miind.

wheeee~

went to VIVO with eQa and baby. <3

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tiired sia.

we played at the wadiing pool.

x) funn lor.

*wiinks*

baby asked me.

"you like my brother eh?"

nolah baby.

i like him. but the feelings i had for him is not GONNA be MORE
than friends. GET wat i mean?

like i said. its too early to say ANYTHING.
LOLS.

i'm sure and certain now that my feelings are not more than friends.
x)))

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FELT sorry for eQa.

eQa.
don't think soo much bout this.
like i said.
he'll be there back for you.
you have my back alriite!

LOLS

cheer up giirl.
you have ME. your cutsy KUZZIE. x)

LOLS

doonoe why im happy today.
maybe because.
i started to think positively.
so very not suree.
hmmms.

yesterday.
talked to ZUL (my bestFREN)
till morning.
we chatted about my problem.
pluss some embarrased moments of our lives.
ahacs.

i donoe why.
i can talk ALMOST everything to hiim.
lols.
he's my best buddy.
iLOVE him.
and i LOVE him not MORE than friends.
its sooo impossible to be MORE than best friends.
LOLS.

and still.
its irreplaceable.

2006-11-14T04:30:00.000-08:00

went out with shiqin just now to causeway point.

then we went to coffeeshop near causeway.

there's this chinese couple walking towards the same direction as us.
so they chatted with me along the way.

so, eventually.
the lady ask me.
"is this your daughter? how old is she?"
i was laughing lor.
so i said lah.
"she's not my daughter. she's my cousin"
and they were like shocked.
"ohh. thats why when i looked at you. the girl cannot be your daughter."
LOLS

shiqin was so cute that she attracts many passer-by attention.
LOLS
there's group of men.
they were also disturbing her.
then shiqin saw this playing machine(is it)
and i told her that we eat first then play.
she throw tantrum.
then one of the guy said.
"aiyoo. kan mak dah marah."
meaning.
"see. your mum is angry."
LOLS
and i was like sooooo paiseh.
ahacs.
so. i asked shiqin in a loud voice.
"shiqin nak aper? KAKAK belikan eh?"
[wad do you want to eat? SIS will buy for you]
i guessed the mat also paiseh lor.
ahaccs.

den we sat down at one table.
ther's this uncle.
i think he's in the mid 40s.
he kept smiling at me.
and was looking at our direction.
i thought he's attracted to shiqin's cuteness.

so.
when we finished eating.
shiqin and me went to the back because there's a playground.
and suddenly
the same UNCLE came to me.

he said.

"maaf eh DIK, ABG tanyer. itu anaknyer eh?"
[excuse me miss. may i ask you is that your daughter]

LOLS

"DIK"?? "ABANG"??

so.
not wanting to be rude.
i replied.
"yes, its my daughter. why?"

and he said.

"oh. where's the father. why he's not following"

and i replied.

"he's working. he'll pick us up later. alah. its oklah UNCLE. he also needs to support the family.
our daughter will start nursery next year."

and he said.

"oh. you look young. oklah ABANG go first. "

and i said in my heart.
if i am young to to him. den why call me adik, and call himself abang?.

LOLS

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FUNNY ppl.

2006-11-13T09:05:00.000-08:00

i miss my friends.

LOLS.

everyone is busy with their own life.

and me.

boredom fills my life everyday.

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thanks semut for accompanying me
and entertaining me.

LOLS

FADH.
i miss you gerl.
i want to watch priincess hours.
pls pls pls.

NINI.
noii miss nini very much.
really dooo.

EQA : K E N T O T
noii miss and love eQa.
my kuzzien .
my confidant .
my all .
remember eQa.
syam needs confidence.
you should support him.
he's nice baybeh. (syam treat me horr)
LOLS

NANA.
wher are you girl?
used to be close
how come now senyap?
i miss you.
hope you miss me too.
=)

WEN : DARDAR
i miss your laughter babe.
i want you.
huhu x)
i HEARTS you.
date me?
best gurlfren i had.

LIA
i miss and lurv you.

ZULQIFFLI HASSAN
my bestfren.
my giler fren.
my handsome fren.
my FOREVER BESTIE.

2006-11-08T07:30:00.000-08:00

just came bek.

first go pasir ris.

meet at auni's place then we decided to go out.

went to city hall

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then reached there went to have CARAMEL FRAPP again

and this time..

auni treat me.

LOLS. very happyy deh!

but then.

auni bring up story abt the death of my ex.

HERMAN KESTLER.

i donnoe if shafiq's telling the truth abt his death.

shafiq says that ppl blamed me for that.

i am not sure whtr to belief that herman is REALLY DEAD.

i can't.

i've broke his heart.

and shafiq also says that.

it was ME.

i very sad.

and he says the family hate me.

tell mi shafiq that this is all FAKE and i've just being punk'd.

if its just fake and making up stories i can accept.

but if its true.

i'll be guilty all my life.

i dowan to haunted by all these.

can someone help me.

teach me to be stronger?

i'm cryiing now. and i need a shoulder to cry onn.

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2006-11-07T06:18:00.000-08:00

quarter past three.

two gorgeously-swit-nocturnal sicko-being is still awake.

so these sicko-being consist of fadh & noii a.k.a cute.

decided to make a video clip.

so..

prasan lah skejap..
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so.
of cos it was tiring
because it took us almost 3 hours to finish one video clip.
and we have many 'takes'
i had to make-up.
wear excessive accessories.
konon2nyerr btol2 nyer SUPERSTAR lah kan.

and.
most sicko thing.
i had to wear high-heels to look taller of cos and to look more professional.
LOLS

very fun sehh.
FADH the producer ye ye ooh kater nk joget
end up si mina jenin nilah yg joget sorang2 atas katel.
ngn kasot tinggi mcm klcc.
pas tuh si fadh tu tros bareng pat atas tilam..

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2006-11-06T21:57:00.000-08:00

she's my sexy mama..
went to vivo.

very biiiiiggg seh.

and of cos.

hell lotsa fun
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i love mama.
weeee.

bcos

she agreed to renovate the house.

weeewiiit.

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vivo was fun tau.
must go and bring many2 friends and families along.

there's my fav shop outlet

esprit. warehouse. levis.

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and AGAIN.

bought CARAMEL FRAPP.

2006-11-06T21:44:00.000-08:00

haven been updating.

miss my blogging world.

on sat.

went to JB to nyai's unggal house.
very fun.
superrr duperr.

and because of that.
i've grown 2345 pounds fatter.
so much things to eat.

when night time.
me.cik ana.kila.ct & abg MAN
wanted to buy ice-cream at the shop behind.
so we have to pas thru muddy soils and many different types of nocturnal animals.

as i was the second one(konon2 nye brani lah)

kila, shouted there's 'ayam'

so i say 'where??!' and was looking down so as to prevent myself from getting 'chicken attack'
LOLS

but.
wen i looked up.
suddenly the 'ayam' was dere.
looking at me and making sound
it was RIGHT in front of my two bloody eyes.

so i , i mean WE ran.

haha.

very scared sehh.

den my grandaunt had an eerie experience
wen we were sleeping soundly
we slept tgt outside the living room.

fuuh. but i've yet to hear her story.

2006-11-03T07:40:00.000-08:00

was out jus now.

pick kentot up at raffles.

and now i'm at nyai's place updating my blog.

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before i met kentot i went to esplanade a while.
so many people seh.
i wanted to see if there's perfomance or something.

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there's an indian perfomance.
well was there for about 6 mins and 99 sec.
didn't want to stay too long cos
there's LOTSA people which was WEIRD to me.

hehe.

'ayam' called just to say that he wanted to come my house for rayer tmr.
LOLS. baru kenal tkkn nk dtg uma seh. hehe.

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me and kentot went to buy CARAMEL FRAPP at starbucks.
but this time,
the CARAMEl is much more tastier.
(pardon me if my english were bad[dah lamer tk jejak skola])

LOLS.

in the MRT;
kentot asked me;
"asal noi skrg diam ajer bler kat umah ibu"
meaning why am i so quiet when i'm at ibu's house.

so i answered;
i feel so uncomfortable and very shy when i'm at ibu's place.
well..
its true.
frankly,
whenever kentot mentioned about ibu.
my heart beats soooo fast.
i don't know why..
maybe because ibu is KHAIRUL NIZAM's mom
and KHAIRUL NIZAM is my ex.
thats why speaking of ibu or the family
brings jitters to my stomach.
(did i mention it right?)
i don't know why.
speaking of him or mentioning his name
i feel so afraid and scared
haiiis
i think its the past that has make me scared of him
thats why i prayed so hard and soooo much that
i will NEVER EVER meet him anywhere.
yeah. its true.
and that friday was gonna be last.
i hoped soo much.

then;
kentot asked again;
"are you still waiting for NIZAM"
and my answer is NO.
i'm not going to wait for him anymore.
yes. i do love him. i do miss him sumtimes.
BUT
the fact is..
its all over now.
he's just a distant friend to me now.
and now,
my heart no longer yearns for him.
i do haf my pride
and i'm not gonna drop my water-face
just for a GUY
it doesn't make sense to me now.
the PAST has make me more stronger(i'd guessed)
and i promised myself
NEVER to LAID any tears for any GUY.

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L>O>V>E

love really taught me that
it is not always beautiful like i imagined
AND u'll never want to feel
the UGLY side of it.

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in my younger days as a kid.

i always wanted a PRINCE charming in my life.

BUT

now.
looks doesn't ensure my happiness.

and
i hope if ever i fell in love
i would want him to;
*LOVE me
*RESPECT me
*take good care of me
*and accept all my imperfections.

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and must treat me 'CARAMEL FRAPP with choc's TOPPINGS"

LOLS.

so.

i pray for that one MAN to come

haha.

haiiisssh.

MAMA. i lurrrve euu.

<3

=))))))

2006-11-02T06:19:00.000-08:00

CHRISTINA AGUILERA
Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know todayOoh, oohI would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to these rules
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

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i wished that one day.
i will be the MOST HAPPIEST girl on earth.

waiting for that day to come;

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and i'll sleep with a smile on my face; FOREVER

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awww.
sob sob.

i'm so emotional these few days.

but still i cant help it.

it feels so blessed if i could have another TEN more wishes.

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MAMA.

i LOVE you.

verrrry muches.

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its been 3 times i dreamt that i failed my n's

its a NIGHTMARE!!

oh god.
i can't imagine my life if i failed.

i dowan that to happen.

i want to pass.

haishh.

people.
pray for me yar? hehees.

PRISON BREAK now.

lurrrve yarr.

*winks*

2006-11-02T02:40:00.000-08:00

GRrrrrrrr.

i've typed veryyyy long entry.
and suddenly the stoopid po-up says 'Sorry for the inconvenience cause.'

wahh.
senangnyer ckp sorri.

haissh.

den now must start again.

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i want this song called "when there was me & you"
anyone have it?
=0

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i need to make a confession over here.

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i'm in love.

yuppppss

ALBANIA [cute] is in lurrrve.

weheeeee.

weewiiiit.~

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this hot-gorgeously cute-sexy looking guy
has captivate my heart now.

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he's none other than

* ZAC EFRON *

weeewiiit!

phew!!!

at last got it all out.

hahacs.

2006-11-01T01:56:00.000-08:00

woke up at TWO for today.
wahh. nilah org kater.
"POMPUAN melayu terakhir"

hehe.
supposed to go raye with nana they all.
tapi memandangkan anak dare di sini
terlewat bangon, jadi, hasrat tinggal hasrat ajelah.

=0

LOLS.

MAMA.
i love MAMA. very strong.
hee.
haiiish.
MAMA
i do hope one day.
u'll understand your daughter's needs and WANTS.
i pray for that one day to come.
sometimes i feel that
my own family never support me.
not saying bad but, i can't feel it
why can't i have all the support.
i want to do this, i thought i could have all the support
but.. it turned out that everrrrryooone dislike it.
what can i do?
haiish.
it seems like i'm still a SIX year old to them.
i know they care.
i know they love me.
but still, i'm sixTEEN.
unless, they don't TRUST me.
then i can see the reaon whyy.

i don't want to be ousted from the outside world.

i don't want to feel neglected.

and i don't want to feel miserable every single day!

so..
the best way....
i'll remain FAR from everyone.

i don't want to burden myself to all these
after all.
i still love my family.
i love them very much.
but, have some thoughts for your little one over here.

i'm crying.

gosshhhh!!!

haiiish.

nvm. everyhing's gonna be over when i took my n's result.

either i scored, failed or passed.
i hope that i never disappoint anyone.
because i knew.
i did my best.
BUT.
there's so many obstacles i've got to face.
i wonder if i could pass.

i will always pray for the best.

=0

insyaallah.

FRIENDS.

don't leave me. MAMA too.

2006-11-01T01:26:00.000-08:00

tk lawa tkper, bia CUTE. =0
-vain.inc-
sementare menunggu dier abes bbl, amek lah gbr.
nii lah kejeku.. "meLAWAKAN yg tk lawa"

2006-10-31T06:25:00.000-08:00

greetings to all

just got back from somerset with my ' kentots ' and shiqin.
kentots was there for an interview. so left me and shiqin to cineleisure.
wahhh that girl was very hyperactive just now.
everybody was looking at her.
don't know what kentot fed her yesterday.
shiqin was running around like nobody business and the cineleisure was like her playground!=)

yesterday went to nizam's house for rayer. =)
i miss ibu deh! hehe. ok lar. she say i've grown thinner.
because when i was with nizam i was like a pig jus being born.
mcm guni beras or shall i say "RICE SACK''
haha.
EXPAND skejap when ibu say like that.
then we went to amer's hse.
wahhh. i misss mama so much seh.
mama was superrr cute as ever.
can i ever miss any family like that? i really miss those moments with mama and ibu.

oh okay. before any tears came down.
change topic now.

yeah baybeh. now i want to work.
when i heard or saw ppl working. i feel that i want to work.
even though there's some laziness in me, but still, i WANT to work.

miss my MAMA so much. wonder what she's doing now.
haissh. mama, i wish one day u would understand your daughter's feelings.
i really love you. but i'm just too shy to say to you sometime.
mama i LUUUUUURRVEEE you.
i always pray for you mama.

omg. don't cry albania. hehe.

i wanna bathe now. even though i still smell like the flower blooms in the garden but still i need to smell more nicer. who knows i can meet my PRINCE in my sleep!

haha. lurvee you frens. muaaaaccckks.

2006-10-30T01:17:00.000-08:00

my belurrved kuzzen ;

enjoyinn my days with her.

2006-10-30T00:25:00.000-08:00

been out with my deariie gorgeous kuzzien :AFYQAH.

very the kecohrable!! haha. i'm glad that at least i'm now beginning to be happy
and not dwelling too much on all the problems i had.
i'm sure there's always a reason to everything that happens.
AFIQAH ALI.
very independant. strict and very passionate in everything she does.
i realli love her because she's my dearly kuzzien. awwwww. very sweeet. haha.
still smiling when problems crops up. i admire her SPIRIT of dignity. well enuff said abt her, later she kembang. malas aku nk kempeskan.
haha.

now i know, even without love from th opposite sex
i can still feel the love from all my family and friends!

i definately love them too..

i love you. thanks for becoming a part of me. =)

2006-10-29T23:59:00.000-08:00

hey ppl

i'm back here now

i've forgotten my id and pass

but now, i've got it

hmms, life has been hectiic but more relaxed after the n's

but still, problems kept comin into my liife
i didn't know where the mistakes lies..
i still have no answer for it..
haish.

2 days before the n's i broke up with HIM.
its entirely my fault. i know that i shouldn't fake my love him.
its not fair to him. the reason i broke up with him is because
my heart was torn into 2.
i know i shouldn't have love someone else but who am i to stop
this feelings i had.

sometimes i wonder, why does all these has to come in the midst of me
having my MAJOR exam.
all i can do now is to pray for the best and hope that i will pass. =)

2006-09-11T04:58:00.000-07:00

`craziiiest fren !! pokerdots ! weeewiiit!
weeewiit! `unbelievable! hahacs .
mrs M . =0

yeah . sci paper was a disaster fer mii cos i NVR study properly . haiiish . veri sad .

but still, im gonna study study and study fer my nlevel . for u my dardar, i'll do it!! haha .

well, after prelim paper went t miit him at JE fer a while and i strait headed t coswae t miit k.ika,along,nini and my kentot . cossh tdae is KENTOT's bdae! weeewiiit . surprise fer her jus now .

my liife is happier rite now, wit frens by my siide .. im happier now, NIZAM . i no longer yearnin fer uu . and dun prasan pls, i haf stopped lurving u and missing uu . hehe . so jgn PRASAAN yer bang?

well, to end of, i wanna sae a big big thank you t my belurved dearie frens out there hu took mii out from my miserable liife ! =0 weeewiiit !!!

2006-09-07T05:06:00.000-07:00

my baby gerl naziihah! lurv her sooo much!

2006-09-07T04:47:00.000-07:00

our idiotic face in th bus! =0

fuuhh! very tiired . been out siince 1 pm. meet iizam . act, haf t miit HIM first but then .. i decided not cos very tiired . furthermore, i am suppose to clean th house . then, tt shorty iizam msg mii wanted t borrow phy notes . den he ask mii along play soccer at j.e . reached je saw hiim n yar, he was surprised cos i saed i didnt wan t go out but then i went out oso w SUMEONE else . hehe . bad ryte? bud nvm . luurve it wen he's jealous . *wiinks . haha . very bad lor .
enjoy my dae w hiim, hapi2 around and wen he was playin soccer, i saw his hp. he put my nam 'AAARGH' in his contact list. i feel soooo sad seh . feels like im a burden t hiis life . and all along till bus stop . i remained silent . talk t his frens and not t hiim . =( haiish .

2006-09-06T02:54:00.000-07:00

eyys . beeen v bored cos i've been entertainin one irritating GUNDU hu doesnt seems to undrstnd simple english and basic malay .. its been almost five hours entertaiinin tt gunduu ! here's my conversatiion .

@pai smile says:
NOI MCM NE GAMBA NIZAM SKRG OHK YK??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
okay .. but mcm matrep jgak uhh . y?
@pai smile says:
huh>>jasmine mcm mtrip??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
tkk . i mean zam . jasmine ok arr .. tapi very fake attitude .
@pai smile says:
nape pulak..mepek ar noi..semue org yg nizam suke noi mest ade coment..nape??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
maner lah noii tau . itu nizam nye psl lah .. noi tau noi tk suker shu zhen and jasmine .'
@pai smile says:
hahaxx..sebab noi jeslous noi dpt tau nizam mataer ngn shu zhen kn??kn??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
ya ya ya . happy?
@pai smile says:
better..now..zam da le blg org yg noi jealous bile nizam ngnshu zhen mataer..HahHaxxxx...
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
noii ckp nk puaskn atii zam ajerr .. so no offence .
@pai smile says:
hahhax..ohk lah..noi ni tk le tke jokes ar..ape lah uuuuu....
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
haha . bleh .. tats y noii maseh lyn zam .. phm?
@pai smile says:
noi skrg nizam mcm matrip tk??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
yea . but pakai spec tk sgt arr . nmpak slenger sket . hehe
@pai smile says:
hahhax..kelaka eh??ohk2 nizam tuka gamba lagi...
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
okay ..
@pai smile says:
skrg mcm ne??ohk tk??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
ok .. mcm S. Jibeng pon ader ..
@pai smile says:
ar..mepek ar noi..padehal hdsme kn..??noi teroz terang lah ckp yg nizam ni hdsme..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
u are forever hensem ..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
PRASAAN HENSEM
@pai smile says:
hei..ths dude..noi tenga uat ape??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
dude fer guys lah GUNDUU . tenga chat ngn zam lar .. zam!!! kasi comment zam kat blog noii lah .
@pai smile says:
mcm ne nk masok..dude utk laki2 pompan ape??babe..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
http://dunchurtmiianimore.blogspot.com/ press here! GUNDU .
@pai smile says:
sorie pandai..nizam nk kasi noi coment ape??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
ckp je pape u tynk abt my blog syyyyggggggg .
@pai smile says:
eh??ape 2??panjang nye word 2..nnizam tk tau bace ar..le explain syyyyggggggg 2 ape??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
ntah . tatau .. zam cpt lah kasi comment . lembap ar.
@pai smile says:
da la..nizam letak name nizam dude..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
ape seh .. letak name nizam lahh ...
@pai smile says:
taknk ar..uat ape sey..lau nizam nye name sedap tkpe jugak..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
cann lahh ...
@pai smile says:
hahaxx..ohk tk coment nizam ?/mepek kn??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
nice b? wats tt?
@pai smile says:
ape bende yg b 2??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
mane nooi tau .. zam yg kasii comment?
@pai smile says:
hahhaxxnizam pun tk tau..nizam tulis tao tk te piki ape nizm tulis..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
haha . okay ..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
zam tk kua?
@pai smile says:
tk..malas..nk jumpe nenek pun tk jad..next week la nmpak nye baru nizam pegi....
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
orh . slengeh ar zam . tau noii jumper narii ..
@pai smile says:
tk bole..
@pai smile says:
senang2 je nk jumpe nenek nizam..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
suke ar . noii rindu nenek per . suke atii noii lah .

@pai smile just sent you a Nudge!

You have just sent a Nudge!

@pai smile winks:
Play "Pig"
@pai smile says:
mcm noi sey..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
samer arrr mcm nizam lau tak pon mcm shu zhen!
@pai smile says:
ape saje je..shu zhen lagi cute ar..
@pai smile says:
noi mepek..
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
cutee .... mcm babi uat pe ..
@pai smile says:
abis kire noi banyk lawa??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
noii tk ckp pon noii lawa .
@pai smile says:
abis maksok noi??noi cute ar ni??
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
noii tk ckp pon noii cute .
@pai smile says:
nizam nk .....lau noi ckp nooi cute...
***_ heart`shattered..`. says:
okay . tapi noii tk ckp pape ponn . nizam nk muntah itu zam nye psl .
@pai smile says:
nizam tk ckp pn nizam nk muntah..nizam uat 2 bab nizam makn skali ter chock..
***_ u are sooooo irritatingg..`. says:
ylh zam ..
***_ u are sooooo irritatingg..`. says:
asl zam bahgie sudah ehh .. noii tk ckp pape ponn..
@pai smile says:
bagus..noi tk kwn pompan nk kasi nizm knl2 ke??
***_ u are sooooo irritatingg..`. says:
tkder .. zam nk?
@pai smile says:
lar2 lah nizam bored sey..eh ??mummy tknk knl2 nngn org ke?/nizam le knl2 ngn dier..
***_ u are sooooo irritatingg..`. says:
tanak .. anak diier nak?
@pai smile says:
uat ape??boring je knl2 ngn anak dier..sakit kn kepale otak nizam je..
***_ u are sooooo irritatingg..`. says:
okaayyy ..

sooooo damnnnn irritating .. grrrrrrrrr!!!

2006-09-06T02:49:00.000-07:00

weeeeee~ ii lurvee tish piics ..

2006-09-06T02:35:00.000-07:00

my beeetiful lurvly ppl . =0

`envy mii

2006-09-06T01:02:00.000-07:00

ii wake up soooo late tdae . bcos of last night chatting on th fone w kak ika and tt GUNDU!
he kept askiin mii whtr ii still like hiim anot . crap ryte? prasAAn seh tuh matrep . lols .
as iif i don haf ani othr important tings t thiink .. errm . 0409 . d dae ii turned 16 . yar .. indeed vy hapii on tt dae . but sumhow, vy sad oso .. mama bought cake, cook fer mii a lot lot and she gave mii j'lo's perfume . very touchiin . luurve mama lotttss . uncle zizi n aunt zed gave mii $20 . haha . mus spennd . $20 oso money wat . lols . n surprisiingly, grandma gave mii compact powder!! fer th fers tym, grandma gave mii sumtynk!!! ii luv u grandma . lols . yeaaa .. my sweetest bdae wishes is frm miizan and tt GUNDU . thanks larr ppl!! luurrvee u loads yar .

nw, chatting w tt GUNDU agaiin . tag mii ppl .

my fiirst entry

2006-09-06T00:20:00.000-07:00