Tuesday, November 28, 2006

this is what we do when we are having MAJOR exams like, N-LEVEL?

i miss and love my class. 4N2'06

i miss my friends. sobs sobs. my schooling days.

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kiss my smoky lips baby 6:20 AM

tiredness.

sickening-toad!

MAN.MIN

they are sooo irritating. hurhur =)

i was soo tired sehhs.

huh. wake up very late deh!

haha.

and i still haven get the tics.

its today for goodness sake.

haiyooo.

hmph!!

wahlau.

nvm.

man.min.mun

ask me out.

hurhur +)

so, again we went out but to jp only.

cos im so famished.

then waited for NIN to come.

haha.

so, FADH.

MOVIE marathon tonite?

hurhur

watched apa ertinya cinta.

damn sweet .

soooooo swiiiit.

LOLS

all i wanted to say is

i'm soooo tired now.

Labels: hectic-phenomenon

kiss my smoky lips baby 6:09 AM

Monday, November 27, 2006

all day i've been waiting for freaky z to call me.

i want the tics!

wher are you?

LOLS

kiss my smoky lips baby 6:05 AM

he's sicko-retarded . he's my FRIEND.
i'm left with boredom.

the un-cutes
"you can't have fringe like me, mok!"

Labels: you-ain't-purrrfect

kiss my smoky lips baby 5:55 AM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

heyys

woaahs.

just now went to SPEAKEASY.
funFun.
so there was rauzan and his buddy whom is still unknown to me.
they are the emcees.
funny ler.
i was looking high and low for freakyZ
because a week before
he told me to come to this SPEAKEASY thingy
and get tickets for the hiphop slam.
so, i searched for him.
but he's not there.
i only saw sleeq plus rau plus roze and the rest of the beats society.
but freakyZ was not in sight.

then.
the three-stooges.
man.min.mun
LOLS
plus me.
went outside.
to take fresh air.
helmi wanted to take a leave cos he was utterly bored
so i asked one of the beats member
she said that freakyZ will be there shortly
so not wantin to wait.
i went off with helmi.black and mok.
woahhs.
going out with them was fun.
it did matter to me at first bcos
i was the only flower amg the thorns
but they treated me well.
CREDITS to u lahh. =)
hahas.
oh ya. i saw syira.
haha.
pretty2 babe now.
weeewiiiit!

then.
i meet kentot at city hall.
and again.
CARAMEL FRAPP plus chocs DRIZZLE.

and i've been cursing everybody all along the way
bcos i didn't get the ticks.
hurhur =)
bad huh?
kesian kentot.
kene jotos ngan aku nie.
haha.
and every innocent one passed by us.
i would cursed them or say un-nice things.
how bad is tat?

haiiish.

but then ;

i managed to get the ticks also.

can't wait to go.

weeeeeeeeeee~

Labels: insatiable-loves-desiree

kiss my smoky lips baby 1:29 PM

Friday, November 24, 2006

yAy...!

going to speakeasy.

thanks HELL-boy and mr. BLACK.

haha.

*SMILES*

"to the left... to the left..."

"you must not know 'bout me".......

lallaallaallaa..

Labels: wisdom of truth

kiss my smoky lips baby 10:44 PM

Labels: irreplaceable ; irresistable ladies

kiss my smoky lips baby 9:19 PM

friday evening went to meet mama at raffles before going to KENTOT house.

MAMA had dinner tonite. and will be back VERY late.

i wanted to buy pants for tmr if only i going the SPEAKEASY thingy.

so went to this GIORDANO outlet
and i heard a FAMILIAR voiice.

"WELCOME TO .... giordano!"

ahacs.

and i shouted
"ZUBIIIRRR!!!"

zubir was the cheerleader aka captain
for Hady's Fans
so.
there he was
working.
was surprised to meet him tho'.

more surprising.
he wasn't in a good terms with
DINA, zura plus plus
and summore
he oso broke up with his gf.
haishh.
nvm lah zubir.
just stay HAPPY okays?

so went to YISHUN
with zubir after mama left for her dinner
and today,
mama went to indonesia
with her FRIENDS.
HAISSSSH.
certainly boredd
i have nothing to do.
and i don't understand why she can't tag me along?
she has always been tagging me along wherever she go.
why not now?
and yesterday.
i asked her.
why she is she going there
and she just replied.
"you don't need to know my dear."
=(
why can't i not know?

kiss my smoky lips baby 9:00 PM

BATTY + insaniity =TROUBLES

kiss my smoky lips baby 8:38 PM

Labels: Mr. Joakim Gomez

kiss my smoky lips baby 8:22 PM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

why can't i upLOAD my piics? stoopiid blog.
grrrrrrrrrr.

kiss my smoky lips baby 5:13 AM

went mediacorp with FADH. for the "wish upon a star" rec show.
bump with minnieNini and her friends.

wah. kecoh betol mulot aku smlm.
ahacs.

LOLS

i had lotsa fun yesterday.
HELL LOTSA FUN.
plus my BIG-unstoppable-CHATTERING mouth

wah LAU
fun siaa

gurmit has became a BALDMAN
but he looks gorgeously-young huh
and their perfomance were very the FUN

=0

so.
when it was breaktime.
gurmit make this joke on my JON JON

because this make-up artist
did some touch up on JON JON
so she ponders on his nose.

GURMIT and HADY make this stupid joke lah
GURMIT says:
"do you know what does it means when a MAN has a big nose like you?"

and JON JON was asking back
"what?"

and gurmit says:
" it means when a MAN has BIG nose. THE OTHER THING is SMALL"

LOLS
we the audience were laughing.

ahacs.

cute siiaa JON JON

and JON JON answered back.

"so, do you know what it means when a MAN is bald?"

he continues....
MEANS..
"he HAS NO HAIR"

LOLS

JON JON i didn't know u soo cute mannn.
i luuuurrrrp you lahh.

haha..

get wad the jokes mean?

LOLS

GUYS YOU SHOULD KNOW BETTER

then there was this part when HADY and JON JON
was standing near us.

SUDDENLY
hady turned and faced me
he said "hi!" plus his smile
i wanted to JELING
ahacs.
but.
kesian kan.
lols
but still i can NEVER forget that incident
at INDOOR STADIUM, MR HADY.

*wiiinks*

then JON JON turned and say
"hi!" plus his kisseable-lips
awwwww.
melt sia noii.
ahacs
and he wink.
nvm
let me be prasan a while
cos i'm so in LURVE with JON JON.

JONATHAN LEONG
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my IDOL. LOLS

after the show.
we waited at the reception.
JOAKIM came out.
NURUL.
RAHIMAH.
PAUL.
EMILEE.
AARON.
plus SHAH ISKANDAR.
and my belurved HUSIN SYAABAN

LOLS

i had funn
and we went back home.
but i was feeling damn hungry
can u imagined our stomach
not being filled since morning
and at the studio we were like shouting
like MAD-hooligans
goshh
so we dropped by at JURONG east

at 7-eleven
there's group of matreps
we wanted to walk past but
the look of them makes me scared sehh
ahahs
so i told FADH (she was SCARED alr)
we walk the other way
then one of the mat was STUPIDLY-SHOUTING at us
"oi mina jalan lah sini!!!"
again
"OI!"
again
"mataer sendiri pon tak kenal perr???!"
i turned to look
and one of them were staring at us
CB. F*** lah.
saper sak mataer dier.
CB CB CB CB
geraaaaaaaaaaaaaaam tau!
huhhhhh.

da la kebulorrr
apelah naseb jumpe mamat tak sedar diri tuhh

my stomach is hungry and i'm tired.
and now.
with this stupid BOYS

den wen i want to buy something
there's TWO stupid bangla's
were grinning at us
stupid lah
look at us atas bawah
da lah pakai kain
aku tarek bia sumer tgk betape KECIKNYE ANU KAU
CB CB CB
thinking of what happened
i so angry tau
den nak alek
i shouted like MAD-woman
"POLICE where??!! POLICE! POLICE"
FADH was like laughing
dek tu lagi satu
jantan2 keparat tu da tgk2 gitu
lagi leh biakan

and we took cab go home.
reached home at midnight.

kiss my smoky lips baby 2:30 AM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

weeewiiit~

LOLS

presenting the PRASAN-sexy-babes

LOLS

its almost midnight.
kak sylah. ME. shiqin.

were camera-w-honing
haha.

we were dressed so sexily.
and give some sexy shots.
imagining ourself to be at the studio.

HAHA.

kentot was supposed to join us.
BUT.
she was ON-THE-PHONE with herr mr.PERFECT

so end up three of us.

but.
shiqin was dressed in her BARNEY-fully-clothed.

well i enjoyed the pics.

there's many more pics.
BUT.
its strictly for children aged 18 & above.

LOLS

dadaa.

kiss my smoky lips baby 12:41 AM

1625 now.

i jus woke up from my beauty sleep.

and i had the strangiest dreams of all.

*grrrrrrr*

i can only say.
i dreamt of SOMEONE.
but he's an unknown identity to me.

i've yet to know him.

?????

i'm feeling so sleeepppy plus tired.

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yesterday.i mean jus now morning.
lukman messaged me.
wow.
after a veryyyyyy long time.
he messaged me.
asking whether i still remember him.
he messaged me thrice.
and still.
i did not reply.
cos.
i'm sooo not-interested.

sorry yarh!

anyways.
he's the guy who asked for my number
when i went out with my kentots to bugis.

but.
unfortunately.
things doesnt work out between me and him.
due to some reasons that i can't state.
x)

apologised to that.

well.
then now.
i'm tired to haf anyone in my mind now.
weeeeeeee.

i belief that.
"LOVE will surely come to ME one day without me realising its presence"

expected the unexpected.

soooo.
LIVE my life to the fullest.
no matter what happens.
i still haf my loved ones.

*winks*

kiss my smoky lips baby 12:27 AM

Friday, November 17, 2006

i'm sick and tired.

to entertain those ppl.

or shall i say 'LADS'

hmms.

sicko-phsyco-belo
LADS.

nice werd i've learnt after 16 years of living.
LADS.

LOLS.

bad siia.

now.
i'm home sweet home.

best of all.
i miss my MAMA.

LOLS

i'm still not sleeping now.

i'm so dreadfully worn out.

went hari raya outing to my tok wan's house.

with my MAMA.aunt.along.shiqin plus the loviing couple,
aunt ZED and uncle ZIZI.
so sad.
my babygerl not there.
i certainly miss aa-ee-hah.
(naziihah)

i really like this irreplaceable song.
so unique yet captivates my heart.

but i still don't get the "to the left.. to the left"
like you are marching.
LOLS

*yawns*

so sliipyy larrh

but can't sleep.

anyone?
put me to sleep.

LOLS

dadaa.

kiss my smoky lips baby 12:01 PM

Thursday, November 16, 2006

i'm soooooo DOWN

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aiyoo.

yesterday was okay.

donnoe why today was so mad

jus now after sending shiqin to her mummy at YCK

i went straight to causeway point alone

at that moment
i felt so intensed.
plus sad . plus MAD.
mixed FEELINGS.

i don know how to vent my angerism(huh)
so.
from causeway.
i walked to vista point and go back to causeway again.

i don't know for what purpose i go there?
i don't know why i was very MAD
i'm soo puzzled

i hate-those-LADS

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kiss my smoky lips baby 7:20 AM

stop beiing a B**** lah.

don't be a coward not to say your name and use other ppl name.

you are being such a pest to yourself.

F*** %&^$*&^(*&)*_)(*^%^%

hypocrites.
fucking irritating sehh.

kiss my smoky lips baby 6:13 AM

sometimes i wonder.

why people often feel that they are so perfect?

when the truth is,

nobody IS perfect.

people make mistakes.

so do I.

i make mistakes in my life too.

i couldn't escape from that.

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i don't bear any grudges to anyone.

cos.
now i realised the importance of being a HUMAN BEING.

i admiit.
often i felt so angry and wanted to avenge for the hurt and grief i had.
but.
it doesn't make me feel better.
but.
instead.
it turns out that my life is even MORE miserable than before.

in other werds.
"forgive and forget"

i'm beginning to accept all the UNWANTED-tragedies in my life as a sign for me
to be truthful to myself.
to be more ALERT in the outside world.

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as much as i wanted to be happy.
i'm beginning to feel it now.
'cos each day i wake up with a hope.
" a hope to forgive and forget that hurts me. And live each day to the fullest. "

kiss my smoky lips baby 12:14 AM

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

its 4.25 am

i came across thiss websiite abt love quotes and such.

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Love is so very special
Yet can make you feel so lost
It can arrive just like the springtime
And melt away like morning frost
You must find ways to nurture
Always grow your love with care
Never ever take for granted
The love that you both share
Mistakes are bound to happen
You may hurt each other's heart
Yet don't give up to easily
It will tear your love apart
Love resembles a bright flame
That lights a dark starry night
Never ever let this flame burn down
Rekindle with all your might
Take a moment every day
Look deep into each other's eyes
Never hesitate to show affection
Small gestures will keep a love alive
Talk openly about your feelings
Take time to show that you care
Treasure each and every moment
Because to find true love is rare
- Connie Thomas Lugo -

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yesh.
true love is indeed hard to fiind.

it is indeed hard if you ever be stuck in a situation
whereby.
the person you love, doesn't love you.
although.
your love is unanswered.
still.
there's always someone out there.
who is meant for you.
someone who'll be there even if
you DON'T need them to be there.
someone who will share your tears and laughter.
someone who understands you.
someone who doesn't underestimate your capability.
someone who respect and trust you.
someone who accept all your imperfections.
and someone
who will never make you cry for no good reasons.

L-O-V-E

its an inevitable feelings.

yarr.

i tried by all means to avoid myself from falling in love.
but.
the more i tried.
the more it eludes me.
and i'm not EVEN
prepared to face all the consequences

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breaking free from my PRISON-hell-love-likes-feelings.

i have to be ignorant towards LOVE*

kiss my smoky lips baby 12:19 PM

"you must not know 'bout me"

these words kept popping on my miind.

wheeee~

went to VIVO with eQa and baby. <3

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tiired sia.

we played at the wadiing pool.

x) funn lor.

*wiinks*

baby asked me.

"you like my brother eh?"

nolah baby.

i like him. but the feelings i had for him is not GONNA be MORE
than friends. GET wat i mean?

like i said. its too early to say ANYTHING.
LOLS.

i'm sure and certain now that my feelings are not more than friends.
x)))

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FELT sorry for eQa.

eQa.
don't think soo much bout this.
like i said.
he'll be there back for you.
you have my back alriite!

LOLS

cheer up giirl.
you have ME. your cutsy KUZZIE. x)

LOLS

doonoe why im happy today.
maybe because.
i started to think positively.
so very not suree.
hmmms.

yesterday.
talked to ZUL (my bestFREN)
till morning.
we chatted about my problem.
pluss some embarrased moments of our lives.
ahacs.

i donoe why.
i can talk ALMOST everything to hiim.
lols.
he's my best buddy.
iLOVE him.
and i LOVE him not MORE than friends.
its sooo impossible to be MORE than best friends.
LOLS.

and still.
its irreplaceable.

kiss my smoky lips baby 6:57 AM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

went out with shiqin just now to causeway point.

then we went to coffeeshop near causeway.

there's this chinese couple walking towards the same direction as us.
so they chatted with me along the way.

so, eventually.
the lady ask me.
"is this your daughter? how old is she?"
i was laughing lor.
so i said lah.
"she's not my daughter. she's my cousin"
and they were like shocked.
"ohh. thats why when i looked at you. the girl cannot be your daughter."
LOLS

shiqin was so cute that she attracts many passer-by attention.
LOLS
there's group of men.
they were also disturbing her.
then shiqin saw this playing machine(is it)
and i told her that we eat first then play.
she throw tantrum.
then one of the guy said.
"aiyoo. kan mak dah marah."
meaning.
"see. your mum is angry."
LOLS
and i was like sooooo paiseh.
ahacs.
so. i asked shiqin in a loud voice.
"shiqin nak aper? KAKAK belikan eh?"
[wad do you want to eat? SIS will buy for you]
i guessed the mat also paiseh lor.
ahaccs.

den we sat down at one table.
ther's this uncle.
i think he's in the mid 40s.
he kept smiling at me.
and was looking at our direction.
i thought he's attracted to shiqin's cuteness.

so.
when we finished eating.
shiqin and me went to the back because there's a playground.
and suddenly
the same UNCLE came to me.

he said.

"maaf eh DIK, ABG tanyer. itu anaknyer eh?"
[excuse me miss. may i ask you is that your daughter]

LOLS

"DIK"?? "ABANG"??

so.
not wanting to be rude.
i replied.
"yes, its my daughter. why?"

and he said.

"oh. where's the father. why he's not following"

and i replied.

"he's working. he'll pick us up later. alah. its oklah UNCLE. he also needs to support the family.
our daughter will start nursery next year."

and he said.

"oh. you look young. oklah ABANG go first. "

and i said in my heart.
if i am young to to him. den why call me adik, and call himself abang?.

LOLS

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FUNNY ppl.

kiss my smoky lips baby 4:30 AM

Monday, November 13, 2006

i miss my friends.

LOLS.

everyone is busy with their own life.

and me.

boredom fills my life everyday.

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thanks semut for accompanying me
and entertaining me.

LOLS

FADH.
i miss you gerl.
i want to watch priincess hours.
pls pls pls.

NINI.
noii miss nini very much.
really dooo.

EQA : K E N T O T
noii miss and love eQa.
my kuzzien .
my confidant .
my all .
remember eQa.
syam needs confidence.
you should support him.
he's nice baybeh. (syam treat me horr)
LOLS

NANA.
wher are you girl?
used to be close
how come now senyap?
i miss you.
hope you miss me too.
=)

WEN : DARDAR
i miss your laughter babe.
i want you.
huhu x)
i HEARTS you.
date me?
best gurlfren i had.

LIA
i miss and lurv you.

ZULQIFFLI HASSAN
my bestfren.
my giler fren.
my handsome fren.
my FOREVER BESTIE.

kiss my smoky lips baby 9:05 AM

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

just came bek.

first go pasir ris.

meet at auni's place then we decided to go out.

went to city hall

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then reached there went to have CARAMEL FRAPP again

and this time..

auni treat me.

LOLS. very happyy deh!

but then.

auni bring up story abt the death of my ex.

HERMAN KESTLER.

i donnoe if shafiq's telling the truth abt his death.

shafiq says that ppl blamed me for that.

i am not sure whtr to belief that herman is REALLY DEAD.

i can't.

i've broke his heart.

and shafiq also says that.

it was ME.

i very sad.

and he says the family hate me.

tell mi shafiq that this is all FAKE and i've just being punk'd.

if its just fake and making up stories i can accept.

but if its true.

i'll be guilty all my life.

i dowan to haunted by all these.

can someone help me.

teach me to be stronger?

i'm cryiing now. and i need a shoulder to cry onn.

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kiss my smoky lips baby 7:30 AM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

quarter past three.

two gorgeously-swit-nocturnal sicko-being is still awake.

so these sicko-being consist of fadh & noii a.k.a cute.

decided to make a video clip.

so..

prasan lah skejap..
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so.
of cos it was tiring
because it took us almost 3 hours to finish one video clip.
and we have many 'takes'
i had to make-up.
wear excessive accessories.
konon2nyerr btol2 nyer SUPERSTAR lah kan.

and.
most sicko thing.
i had to wear high-heels to look taller of cos and to look more professional.
LOLS

very fun sehh.
FADH the producer ye ye ooh kater nk joget
end up si mina jenin nilah yg joget sorang2 atas katel.
ngn kasot tinggi mcm klcc.
pas tuh si fadh tu tros bareng pat atas tilam..

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kiss my smoky lips baby 6:18 AM

Monday, November 06, 2006

she's my sexy mama..

went to vivo.

very biiiiiggg seh.

and of cos.

hell lotsa fun
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i love mama.
weeee.

bcos

she agreed to renovate the house.

weeewiiit.

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vivo was fun tau.
must go and bring many2 friends and families along.

there's my fav shop outlet

esprit. warehouse. levis.

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and AGAIN.

bought CARAMEL FRAPP.

kiss my smoky lips baby 9:57 PM

haven been updating.

miss my blogging world.

on sat.

went to JB to nyai's unggal house.
very fun.
superrr duperr.

and because of that.
i've grown 2345 pounds fatter.
so much things to eat.

when night time.
me.cik ana.kila.ct & abg MAN
wanted to buy ice-cream at the shop behind.
so we have to pas thru muddy soils and many different types of nocturnal animals.

as i was the second one(konon2 nye brani lah)

kila, shouted there's 'ayam'

so i say 'where??!' and was looking down so as to prevent myself from getting 'chicken attack'
LOLS

but.
wen i looked up.
suddenly the 'ayam' was dere.
looking at me and making sound
it was RIGHT in front of my two bloody eyes.

so i , i mean WE ran.

haha.

very scared sehh.

den my grandaunt had an eerie experience
wen we were sleeping soundly
we slept tgt outside the living room.

fuuh. but i've yet to hear her story.

kiss my smoky lips baby 9:44 PM

Friday, November 03, 2006

was out jus now.

pick kentot up at raffles.

and now i'm at nyai's place updating my blog.

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before i met kentot i went to esplanade a while.
so many people seh.
i wanted to see if there's perfomance or something.

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there's an indian perfomance.
well was there for about 6 mins and 99 sec.
didn't want to stay too long cos
there's LOTSA people which was WEIRD to me.

hehe.

'ayam' called just to say that he wanted to come my house for rayer tmr.
LOLS. baru kenal tkkn nk dtg uma seh. hehe.

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me and kentot went to buy CARAMEL FRAPP at starbucks.
but this time,
the CARAMEl is much more tastier.
(pardon me if my english were bad[dah lamer tk jejak skola])

LOLS.

in the MRT;
kentot asked me;
"asal noi skrg diam ajer bler kat umah ibu"
meaning why am i so quiet when i'm at ibu's house.

so i answered;
i feel so uncomfortable and very shy when i'm at ibu's place.
well..
its true.
frankly,
whenever kentot mentioned about ibu.
my heart beats soooo fast.
i don't know why..
maybe because ibu is KHAIRUL NIZAM's mom
and KHAIRUL NIZAM is my ex.
thats why speaking of ibu or the family
brings jitters to my stomach.
(did i mention it right?)
i don't know why.
speaking of him or mentioning his name
i feel so afraid and scared
haiiis
i think its the past that has make me scared of him
thats why i prayed so hard and soooo much that
i will NEVER EVER meet him anywhere.
yeah. its true.
and that friday was gonna be last.
i hoped soo much.

then;
kentot asked again;
"are you still waiting for NIZAM"
and my answer is NO.
i'm not going to wait for him anymore.
yes. i do love him. i do miss him sumtimes.
BUT
the fact is..
its all over now.
he's just a distant friend to me now.
and now,
my heart no longer yearns for him.
i do haf my pride
and i'm not gonna drop my water-face
just for a GUY
it doesn't make sense to me now.
the PAST has make me more stronger(i'd guessed)
and i promised myself
NEVER to LAID any tears for any GUY.

=0

L>O>V>E

love really taught me that
it is not always beautiful like i imagined
AND u'll never want to feel
the UGLY side of it.

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in my younger days as a kid.

i always wanted a PRINCE charming in my life.

BUT

now.
looks doesn't ensure my happiness.

and
i hope if ever i fell in love
i would want him to;
*LOVE me
*RESPECT me
*take good care of me
*and accept all my imperfections.

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and must treat me 'CARAMEL FRAPP with choc's TOPPINGS"

LOLS.

so.

i pray for that one MAN to come

haha.

haiiisssh.

MAMA. i lurrrve euu.

<3

=))))))

kiss my smoky lips baby 7:40 AM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

CHRISTINA AGUILERA
Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know todayOoh, oohI would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to these rules
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

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i wished that one day.
i will be the MOST HAPPIEST girl on earth.

waiting for that day to come;

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and i'll sleep with a smile on my face; FOREVER

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awww.
sob sob.

i'm so emotional these few days.

but still i cant help it.

it feels so blessed if i could have another TEN more wishes.

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MAMA.

i LOVE you.

verrrry muches.

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its been 3 times i dreamt that i failed my n's

its a NIGHTMARE!!

oh god.
i can't imagine my life if i failed.

i dowan that to happen.

i want to pass.

haishh.

people.
pray for me yar? hehees.

PRISON BREAK now.

lurrrve yarr.

*winks*

kiss my smoky lips baby 6:19 AM

GRrrrrrrr.

i've typed veryyyy long entry.
and suddenly the stoopid po-up says 'Sorry for the inconvenience cause.'

wahh.
senangnyer ckp sorri.

haissh.

den now must start again.

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i want this song called "when there was me & you"
anyone have it?
=0

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i need to make a confession over here.

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i'm in love.

yuppppss

ALBANIA [cute] is in lurrrve.

weheeeee.

weewiiiit.~

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this hot-gorgeously cute-sexy looking guy
has captivate my heart now.

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he's none other than

* ZAC EFRON *

weeewiiit!

phew!!!

at last got it all out.

hahacs.

kiss my smoky lips baby 2:40 AM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

woke up at TWO for today.
wahh. nilah org kater.
"POMPUAN melayu terakhir"

hehe.
supposed to go raye with nana they all.
tapi memandangkan anak dare di sini
terlewat bangon, jadi, hasrat tinggal hasrat ajelah.

=0

LOLS.

MAMA.
i love MAMA. very strong.
hee.
haiiish.
MAMA
i do hope one day.
u'll understand your daughter's needs and WANTS.
i pray for that one day to come.
sometimes i feel that
my own family never support me.
not saying bad but, i can't feel it
why can't i have all the support.
i want to do this, i thought i could have all the support
but.. it turned out that everrrrryooone dislike it.
what can i do?
haiish.
it seems like i'm still a SIX year old to them.
i know they care.
i know they love me.
but still, i'm sixTEEN.
unless, they don't TRUST me.
then i can see the reaon whyy.

i don't want to be ousted from the outside world.

i don't want to feel neglected.

and i don't want to feel miserable every single day!

so..
the best way....
i'll remain FAR from everyone.

i don't want to burden myself to all these
after all.
i still love my family.
i love them very much.
but, have some thoughts for your little one over here.

i'm crying.

gosshhhh!!!

haiiish.

nvm. everyhing's gonna be over when i took my n's result.

either i scored, failed or passed.
i hope that i never disappoint anyone.
because i knew.
i did my best.
BUT.
there's so many obstacles i've got to face.
i wonder if i could pass.

i will always pray for the best.

=0

insyaallah.

FRIENDS.

don't leave me. MAMA too.

kiss my smoky lips baby 1:56 AM

tk lawa tkper, bia CUTE. =0

-vain.inc-

sementare menunggu dier abes bbl, amek lah gbr.

nii lah kejeku.. "meLAWAKAN yg tk lawa"

kiss my smoky lips baby 1:26 AM

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miss-whatever

LOVESY

detest

INNOCENT DESIRES

sweethearts.inc Y

DIRTY SECRETS

DATE ME OUT?

LAST INNOCENCE