Friday, November 03, 2006
was out jus now.
pick kentot up at raffles.
and now i'm at nyai's place updating my blog.
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before i met kentot i went to esplanade a while.
so many people seh.
i wanted to see if there's perfomance or something.
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there's an indian perfomance.
well was there for about 6 mins and 99 sec.
didn't want to stay too long cos
there's LOTSA people which was WEIRD to me.
hehe.
'ayam' called just to say that he wanted to come my house for rayer tmr.
LOLS. baru kenal tkkn nk dtg uma seh. hehe.
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and again,
me and kentot went to buy CARAMEL FRAPP at starbucks.
but this time,
the CARAMEl is much more tastier.
(pardon me if my english were bad[dah lamer tk jejak skola])
LOLS.
in the MRT;
kentot asked me;
"asal noi skrg diam ajer bler kat umah ibu"meaning why am i so quiet when i'm at ibu's house.
so i answered;
i feel so uncomfortable and very shy when i'm at ibu's place.
well..
its true.
frankly,
whenever kentot mentioned about ibu.
my heart beats soooo fast.
i don't know why..
maybe because ibu is KHAIRUL NIZAM's mom
and KHAIRUL NIZAM is my ex.
thats why speaking of ibu or the family
brings jitters to my stomach.
(did i mention it right?)
i don't know why.
speaking of him or mentioning his name
i feel so afraid and scared
haiiis
i think its the past that has make me scared of him
thats why i prayed so hard and soooo much that
i will NEVER EVER meet him anywhere.
yeah. its true.
and that friday was gonna be last.
i hoped soo much.
then;
kentot asked again;
"
are you still waiting for NIZAM"
and my answer is NO.
i'm not going to wait for him anymore.
yes. i do love him. i do miss him sumtimes.
BUT
the fact is..
its all over now.
he's just a distant friend to me now.
and now,
my heart no longer yearns for him.
i do haf my pride
and i'm not gonna drop my water-face
just for a GUY
it doesn't make sense to me now.
the PAST has make me more stronger(i'd guessed)
and i promised myself
NEVER to LAID any tears for any GUY.
=0
L>O>V>E
love really taught me that
it is not always beautiful like i imagined
AND u'll never want to feel
the UGLY side of it.
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in my younger days as a kid.
i always wanted a PRINCE charming in my life.
BUT
now.
looks doesn't ensure my happiness.
and
i hope if ever i fell in love
i would want him to;
*LOVE me
*RESPECT me
*take good care of me
*and accept all my
imperfections.
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and must treat me 'CARAMEL FRAPP with choc's TOPPINGS"
LOLS.
so.
i pray for that one MAN to come
haha.
haiiisssh.
MAMA. i lurrrve euu.
<3
=))))))
kiss my smoky lips baby 7:40 AM
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