Thursday, December 28, 2006
Waking up from my beauty sleep.
and i remembered that i've got a shooting for the SMRT today.
Like i said.
Tak dapat mediacorp, SMRT pon jadiklahh!
hees.
And I received a message from
Nizam ! saying ;
"Helu everyone.. Nizam nak kawin tau.."
("Helu everyone.. Nizam's getting married.")
*BLANK*
Is he for real?
I just wanna laugh
BUT
My feelings ;
SAD?
For what?
Happy?
SHOULD I?
So,
i decided not to think of it
tho' it has been a disturbance in my mind ALL DAY THRU'
Whatever it is,
I replied ;
"Alhamdullilah :)"
(Praises to Allah)
All the while i was shooting.
i couldn't concentrate.
BUT
come to think of it
why let THESE
affect me !
I've got lots of things to think !
Like my shooting today.
And he messaged me again
saying
"Noi zam nak tanye siket leh?"
("Noi zam want to ask something?")
And i replied ;
"Wat is it?"
Secs after.
he replied
"whats Fiqah like? whats her attitude actually?"
WAHLAU!
CB him!
Of all things he asked me about my kentots.
haha.
never mind.
i just do have those feelings that they might have
a thing going on.
but
i wouldn't dare to comment much !
Cos.
BOTH is
being so secretive.
hmmm.
so, i replied ;
"Oh abt her, if U wanna noe SO MUCH, den ask her to be ur GF. Ok. TATA."
hahaha.
fuhhh.
Seems rude.
but who cares.
But
it does look like a jealousy tone.
but I'm not jealous at all.
YEAH okay.
I'm not that petty.
I'm NOT JEALOUS.
so,
meaning
he's officially EXITING MY LIFE NOW.
BUT.
how can kentots shut me out things like this?
haiyooo.
He said
"thanks. okay. Bye."
Kesian plak.
He messaged me nicely but it seems that
i'm being rude to him
So,
i message him AGAIN.
"If you wanna noe eqa so much,
be her clos friend, know her better. Don't ask around how she's like cos it mite look obvious.
Best way is, be close with her cos overall she's a nice lady. Best of luck :)"
HAHA.
I can't belief it.
For the first time.
I'm so polite and humble to him.
haha.
whatever it is.
BEST OF LUCK
Khairul Nizam.
:)
But
He messaged me again
He said ;
"Noi about fiqa just now i was just joking around. How can I possibly thinking about her when i'm getting married"
Nizam
i just wanted to laugh.
:)))))
Explaining that to me doesn't seem convincing AT ALL.
Moreever,
I don't care.
What I care now
is my future.
To be precise,
I don't care cos
I know,
My future is not you.
So,
why bother?
If you want to get married to any anonymous to me
then go on.
i'll be very happy for U.
If not,
then i won't bother U.
Anyways,
i replied ;
"haha. ok."
And he replied AGAIN.
(Maybe he sensed that i just dowan to entertain his nonsense)
"okay. Don't think anythink yar! ok bye"
HAAHAHAHAHAH.
u make me laugh lah boy.
so,
i replied.
"Don't worry. Even if U and eqa got a thing going on, no wrong in it. NO HARM PON.
Klah. Daada."
:)
With that,
i end off with TEARS in my eyes!
SEE!
i'm just tooo weak.
I don't know where the hell the mistakes lies
that i completely MAKE THESE TEARS falls again.
NIZAM
CAN u just DIE?
DIE ;
so that i can no longer have any heartbreaks
SO that i could stop thinking WHO'S
Ur next GF !
So that i can STOP
wasting my tears on U
Bcos of U
I hate to love again
All thanks to u!
:)
You better answer for my sins
for CURSING u.
Albania,
he's not the only MAN in this world.
I mean
BOY.
.............
So,
"stop being so DUMB
and wasting all ur time, BREATH and of cos
TEARS
ON him."
"I wished that i meet into an accident whereby,
I totally forgot about my past!Can I?"
"I would if i had THE strength!
IF u make me strong mentally then
i shall BANISHED him off my mind and heart. No questions ask !"
I CAN DO IT BAYBEH!
Errrrr.
I have.
I've done it looong time ago.
BUT
why its haunting me now?
Y LOVE
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